Worth the Fight (Accidentally on Purpose) by Davis L.D

Author:Davis, L.D. [Davis, L.D.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2013-12-06T23:00:00+00:00

Chapter Eighteen

I had only begun to get used to sleeping with Emmy in my arms again. Now it was an adjustment to sleep alone in my bed and to not hear Lucas’s early morning babbling. They were going to be in New Jersey for at least two weeks, possibly longer. I wasn’t sure if I could be without either one of them for that long, despite how I left Emmy at the airport.

“I love you,” I had told her, but she just stood there staring at me for what felt like forever before she returned the words in a stammer.

“I’m sorry,” she had said with sincerity.

It was like pulling teeth to get her to say it to me. She was getting ready to go into what I deemed enemy territory – with my son no less. The least she could have done was humor me and push the words out of her mouth a little more smoothly. I told her not to worry about it and to have a nice trip. I walked away without looking back at her, because if I would have looked back at her, I would have begged her not to go. I wasn’t going to beg.

I drove to the hospital after dropping Emmy and Lucas off at the airport. They weren’t releasing my mom in the foreseeable future. The doctors had discovered that she had a series of mini strokes and it was during one of these events that she had fallen down the stairs. I hated that she had been alone, even if only for a few minutes. Lena and Lorraine were still at odds at whether or not she should live on her own or where she should go. I honestly didn’t want her alone, but I wanted her to make the decision for herself.

I only stayed at the hospital for a few minutes, long enough to see how Mom was feeling and to make sure there hadn’t been any significant changes. I stopped off at the office on my way home to pick up some work and then went back to my super quiet apartment. I tried to focus on the upcoming week in court, but the silence was oppressive. I knew Emmy and Lucas weren’t going to come barreling through the door at any moment. My life had changed after Lucas, but I wasn’t aware of how significant that change was until I was sitting in my living room staring at his basket of toys in a corner of the living room. My life had been vastly empty without him, and admittedly without Emmy, too. Though they were only supposed to be gone for a short few weeks, I felt loneliness and emptiness filling up around me.

I was unsettled. I was unsettled because Emmy and I were unsettled. I of all people knew that sex did not make a relationship solid, nor did the little baby talk we had. I wasn’t even sure if we were in a relationship at all,

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