Sin & Suffer by Pepper Winters

Author:Pepper Winters [Winters, Pepper]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Fiction, Mystery & Detective, General, Romance, Erotica, Collections & Anthologies, Contemporary, Suspense
ISBN: 9780733634741
Google: grA-CgAAQBAJ
Publisher: Hachette Australia
Published: 2016-01-25T18:30:00+00:00

Chapter Twenty

Kill

Why was it that people seemed the happiest on the cusp of disaster?

It was like clockwork.

My mom had been happiest before her cancer diagnosis. Thorn had been happiest before my father decided he had to be removed. Even I’d been at my happiest just before my life ended.

Cleo made me happy.

But ultimately, she was the one who made me want to die. —Kill, age eighteen

Sitting in the darkness with my brothers and sisters around me granted the same kind of happiness I’d seen infect others. It was dangerous. This type of joy made people lazy. Unaware. Close-minded.

Happiness was a drug. The strongest of all because it made life seem friendly, open, and kind.

That was bullshit.

I’d forgotten that lesson when I was younger. Believing that everything would work out and my dreams would come true.

And I’d paid the price.

I’d paid the price for my blindness and almost sacrificed everything to despair.

So, even though I wanted more than anything to believe in the happiness spread before me. To open up my heart to the warmth. To bask in the glow of companionship …

I couldn’t.

Wallstreet was still in jail. My father was still alive. And the world was still the same stinking pile of corruption and lies it’d always been.

Until those three things changed, I had no space for intoxication on dreams and fantasy.

Only once I’d achieved what I promised could I find any hope in trusting again. Only once I’d eradicated the lies and treachery could I be free. And only once I’d put into place something so much bigger than myself could I stop chasing that ever-elusive more.

Then … perhaps—just fucking perhaps—I’d let myself be happy.

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