Road to Character : The Humble Journey to an Excellent Life (9780679645030) by Brooks David
Author:Brooks, David
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Random House Digital
Published: 2015-04-13T16:00:00+00:00
Promiscuity
Rustin behaved heroically, but there was also an arrogance and an anger and sometimes a recklessness in his behavior that was not in keeping with his stated beliefs. On October 24, 1944, he felt compelled to send a letter to the warden apologizing for his behavior at a disciplinary hearing. “I am quite ashamed that I lost my temper and behaved rudely,” he wrote.22 There was also a recklessness to his sexual life. Rustin was gay at a time when gay life was pushed underground, when there was no public affirmation for gays and lesbians. But there was a relentlessness to Rustin’s search for partners that even his lovers found disturbing. His speaking tours before and after prison involved constant rounds of seduction. One long-term lover complained that “coming home one day and finding him in bed with somebody else was not my idea of fun.”23 In prison he was flagrant about his sexual interests and was several times caught performing fellatio on other prisoners.
The prison authorities eventually convened a disciplinary hearing. At least three prisoners testified that they had seen Rustin performing oral sex. At first Rustin lied, vehemently denying the charges. When authorities announced they were putting him in a separate part of the prison as punishment, he wrapped his arms and legs around a swivel chair, resisted the guards, and ended up in isolation.
News of the incident spread across activist circles nationwide. Some of his supporters were upset to learn he was gay, but Rustin had never really hidden that. Mostly they were upset because his sexual activities undermined the example he had been setting as a disciplined, heroic resister. In a movement that called upon its leaders to be peaceful, self-restrained, and self-purifying, Rustin had been angry, arrogant, lax, and self-indulgent. A. J. Muste, the leader of FOR and Rustin’s mentor, wrote him a harsh letter:
You have been guilty of gross misconduct, especially reprehensible in a person making the claims to leadership and—in a sense—moral superiority which you were making. Furthermore, you have deceived everybody, including your own comrades and most devoted friends…. You are still far from facing reality in yourself. In the self that has been and still is you, there is nothing to respect, and you must ruthlessly cast out everything in you, which prevents you from facing that. Only so can your true self come to birth—through fire, anguish complete and child-like humility…. You remember Psalm 51: “Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy loving kindness—wash me thoroughly from mine iniquities and cleanse me from my sin…. against thee only have I sinned and done this evil in thy sight…. Create me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.”24
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