Never Giving Up (Never #3) by Anie Michaels

Author:Anie Michaels [Michaels, Anie]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: AM Books
Published: 2014-12-29T00:00:00+00:00

Even though I was exhausted, I knew there was no way I was going to be able to sleep. It felt like there was sand in my eyes, they were so dry and red. I wanted to close them so badly and just fall asleep like this, with Ella’s hand in mine, but I made sure to keep my eyes open. The two most important people in my life were lying in a hospital bed and if something was going to go wrong, I was going to be the first person to know—and to get help.

I tried to keep the dark thoughts away. I tried to focus on the fact that this was a happy occasion. Hospitals didn’t always have to be a place where you almost lost the one person you love the most. It could also be the place where you found a brand new person to love. I tried to focus on that. We weren’t here to lose; we were here to gain.

Ella slept for about three hours, never stirring, sleeping peacefully. I watched the screen just to the side of her bed that monitored her contractions. The screen showed her contractions as hills and as far as I could tell the hills were getting taller and wider. I’d watched the screen enough to understand that meant her contractions were getting stronger and lasting longer, and for that reason I was glad she was still asleep.

Ella was, by far and away, the strongest woman I had ever met, but it was agonizing to watch her suffer through labor. For nine months she’d spoken about trying to have a natural birth. I have no doubt she very well could have made it—she’s stubborn enough—but I wanted her to give herself a break, to not push herself so hard that in the end she was worse off than when she started.

The hills were getting bigger and wider still and with every contraction my eyes darted back and forth between the screen and Ella, watching to see if she was uncomfortable at all. She slept through every single one, not looking like she was affected at all. Modern medicine really was astounding. To my left, through the wall, I heard the distinct sound of a baby crying. The cry was gurgled and frantic. It sounded new. I felt a little uncomfortable hearing someone else’s baby’s first cry—like I’d stolen something from them. But then I smiled to myself thinking that if I could hear that baby’s cry then the parents were also hearing their baby’s first cry. Excitement washed over me, looking forward to sharing that moment with Ella, hoping someone in the rooms next to us might use our special moment as motivation.

I finally allowed my eyes to close, trying to have faith in the fact that Ella was asleep and not in any pain. My hand was clasped around hers and I pulled her it close to me as I laid my head on the bed next to her.

Download

Copyright Disclaimer:
This site does not store any files on its server. We only index and link to content provided by other sites. Please contact the content providers to delete copyright contents if any and email us, we'll remove relevant links or contents immediately.