EASY (The Ferro Family) by H.M. Ward

Author:H.M. Ward
Language: eng
Format: mobi
ISBN: 9781630350796
Publisher: Laree Bailey Press
Published: 2017-06-05T18:30:00+00:00

CHAPTER 9

THREE DAYS LATER

L ying in my bed, I stare at the inky sky filled with wide brush strokes of glittering stars. Out of everything I ever wanted to own, to touch—that’s it. The majestic splendor of it leaves me in awe every time I climb up here. There’s nothing that compares to the way lying here in solitude makes me feel.

Well, that’s not entirely true. That night began with a little ember of a thought that blossomed into a flame that flickers brightest in the dead of night when I’m alone. What if I had someone to share this with? What if Chase had followed me up here? ‘What if’ followed by ‘what if.’

What if I wasn’t a Ferro.

What if that night had never happened?

What if there were a way to move forward without scattering my ashes to the wind?

Too many questions and not enough answers. I did this to myself. I need to keep reminding myself of that. I’ve been played in the past, but not this time. It was solely my fault, my responsibility. Lizzie is buying me time so I can figure out what happened, because there are still parts I’m missing, things I don’t know. That night doesn’t make sense. It shouldn’t have ended in a pool of blood, but it did.

I swallow hard and roll over. I’ve not left the house for three days. I called in sick to work so I wouldn’t get fired, but that also means no internet. There’s no way to know if my stalker is going to out me. So I remain hidden, biding time until I can figure out how to approach this mess.

Lifting my gaze, I peer through the glass once more, wishing I could escape all this and have the freedom I’ve always longed for. To not be a puppet or a pawn or a killer. One could only wish now. It’s too late. And I’m selfish for not running Chase off. Okay, I tried to get rid of him, but he keeps coming around. I should have pulled out a shotgun and threatened him to get off my land. That would have been a clear message.

Instead, I tell him not to come, but he does and he brings breakfast every morning and dinner every night. He says it’s only this once, that I shouldn’t get used to it, but another day passes and the same scenario repeats. I look forward to that part of the day the most, and consider what it would be like if he came a little earlier or left a little later. Or if we were tangled together? Or if I used him the way I used so many other men and tossed them aside? I’m not the slut my parents believe me to be, but at some point sex detached from love, and I began to doubt that there was such a thing.

Chase nailed me on that point. I don’t believe two people can fall in love, not anymore. It’s another myth, a fairytale for idealists who haven’t yet lived life.

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