Dave Gahan--Depeche Mode & the Second Coming by Trevor Baker

Author:Trevor Baker [Trevor Baker]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781784189556
Publisher: John Blake
Published: 2015-01-15T00:00:00+00:00

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ISOLATION

Depeche Mode’s timing had been good with Violator. It arrived at a point when thousands of American teenagers and others around the world were getting bored of the stale rock scene. Rock ’n’ roll itself seemed tired and the Basildon boys seemed to represent something different, something cooler and more modern. By the time they’d finished the World Violation tour, though, rock was about to revitalise itself. Grunge was starting to appear on the radar. It was still an underground movement. Its aficionados thought that it was an alternative to mainstream rock, rather than, as it turned out, a replacement for it. It seemed like something very new was in the air in America.

For Dave, going back to his old life in England didn’t seem like an option. “I was really bored and really safe,” Dave said to The Times Magazine. “I felt really safe in my life in England in lots of ways, and I didn’t like it. There I was with a loving, caring wife, a new baby, a big house in the country, a couple of cars in the drive, and it just didn’t feel right. I wanted to move to California but Joanne didn’t want to.”

Dave was fascinated by LA but, more importantly, he was also fascinated by Teresa. After the World Violation tour he finally made the decision to leave Joanne and Jack and move to Los Angeles. “You look at yourself in the mirror one morning and suddenly everything’s very, very different and the whole perspective has suddenly changed,” he told Details magazine. “Last night wasn’t just ‘I wanted to get laid’ – I didn’t want to be that person anymore. Teresa brought out some emotions in me that I hadn’t discovered, like love.”

Nevertheless he was understandably aware he was at risk of doing a similar thing to Jack that his own father had done to him. “My dad left myself and my sister when we were very young, in a very vulnerable position, and I’ve done the same thing with my son,” he said to Vox. “But at the same time I haven’t, because I’m determined to make it work.” He knew he hadn’t treated Joanne well for the last few years and, in his own head at least, he was at last doing the right thing. “Over the years, I think I was a pretty shitty person,” he continued. “I didn’t like what I saw and what I was creating very much in my own life.” He was also keen to point out in Vox that Joanne “understands the importance of me seeing him and Jack being able to see me. She’s been really good about it.”

At the time, his new life in Los Angeles seemed like a fresh start, a chance to be himself. Unfortunately he wasn’t really sure who that was. “One of my biggest problems is being a people-pleaser,” he has said. “I want the whole world to love me. If people seemed like they weren’t having fun, I would try to become the centre of attention.

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