The List by Chantal Fernando

Author:Chantal Fernando [Fernando, Chantal]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2017-05-14T18:30:00+00:00

Chapter Ten

Ellen meets some of her other friends, and Eli and I are left alone. We stumble through the streets, arm in arm, smiles making a permanent appearance. From the outside, you’d think we were together, that we were in love, but that isn’t how it is at all. I think that Eli is very free with his affection; to him it doesn’t mean what it does to me. I’m rarely affectionate with anyone, to get that from me, you have to mean something to me. With him, I think it’s just a part of who he is. He’s a gentleman, he’s chivalrous—he’s just a good man with a heart of gold. He’s a very giving, loving person to be around. Nothing fazes him, and he just goes with the flow, never overthinking anything. I can learn so much from him, but at the same time I know I can never be like that. I’m a completely different person to him. He complements me, balances me out. I wonder if he thinks I have any qualities that do the same for him.

“I’m leaving tomorrow,” he says, glancing down at me. I avoid his eyes, turning to look straight ahead. “Don’t do that,” he murmurs, so I glance back at him.

“Do what?” I ask, schooling my expression.

“Your eyes are a dead giveaway. And you know it. That’s why you look down or hide them whenever you’re up to something, or whenever you don’t want people to see what you’re thinking. Don’t hide them from me.”

He wants me to give him everything, but will give nothing in return.

“I like them most when they’re filled with mischief,” he continues, smoothly changing the subject. “And paired with that Cheshire cat smile and batting lashes, you’re a hard woman to resist, you know that?”

Yet resist is all he does.

“You can’t tell me that you’re leaving, then say all that cute stuff, Eli. It’s not fair,” I huff, looking away from him again.

I knew the time was coming, but fuck if it doesn’t suck.

“We have one night, Taye,” he says softly. “We should make the most of it.”

“Then we need to be in bed, not out here,” I say, stopping on the sidewalk and facing him. “It’s how we started, and how we should end, right?”

Blue eyes soften as he looks down at me.

They tell me that he will miss me, but I know he won’t say the words. He’s never once made any promises to me, or anything like that. He’s been honest about what this is and what this isn’t.

And if I fall…

That broken heart is on my hands.

*****

We need to get home, now.

We’re in the cab, and we can’t keep our hands off each other. It’s so bad. So bad that it’s good. Amazing. Fuck, his lips taste mine, and his hand is on my bare thigh, inching closer and closer… Lucky it’s dark in here. I’m wearing the most expensive boots I’ve ever purchased, and this is the first time I’ve left the house in them.

Download

Copyright Disclaimer:
This site does not store any files on its server. We only index and link to content provided by other sites. Please contact the content providers to delete copyright contents if any and email us, we'll remove relevant links or contents immediately.