Sol by Apolonia Ambrosius

Author:Apolonia Ambrosius
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: young adult, friendship, family issues, family, art, music, sculpting, self discovery, romance, flowers, nature, philosophy
Publisher: Apolonia Ambrosius
Published: 2018-04-17T16:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER EIGHT

LONELY PLAY

Days of three months worth have rolled out of the window, sweeping Sol into unfamiliar mind state of battling between feeling ultimate nothing, to feeling too much of something that is long gone. She still stayed heavily preoccupied with hiring new part-timer every two weeks, to run the flower shop as smoothly as it was possible. Sol also quickly realized no one was as skilled and fluid in movements than Min. The girl may not be the most knowledgeable in the textbook frame, but she was extremely in tune with nature’s law, as if she created these laws herself. Contrary to her words, Sol was nowhere near to being strong, at least not in the sense she understood it.

There were countless times when she called Min’s phone number only to be faced with empty ringing, that eventually turned into unreachable number. One time she even went to the bar to meet with the guys, however their concerts were canceled until indefinite time. The option of visiting them in their basement apartment stayed out of the question. If Min was so clear in respecting their space and rules, then how much power was holding Sol’s presence in comparison to their obvious leader.

It felt like her reality, which had started to become fuller, meaningful, faded into unconsciousness with the rest of her unorganized thoughts and nightmares.

Sol always placed her dream world very high on her list of priorities, but throughout these empty months all she dreamed about was pure horror, sometimes even waking her up, drenched in sweat and trembling. In these dark hours she saw people she knew burning in blazing fire, crying their bleeding eyes out. All the faces were severely scarred, burned, and horrible to look at, but when she gather a little courage and face them properly, she saw her own reflection in their vacant eyes telling her to look inside.

This was another indication how sensitive she still was and how much roughness she had to experience in life to be able to sleep soundly like the time Hell slept on the couch. He seemed without worry or fear, and yet he witnessed so much more terror than Sol could even be able to imagine. One thing was sure, the girl and the boy vanished and there was no possible path that could magically take her to them. Perhaps all she really needed to look for them was only a sheer drop of strength, but that was the most difficult task for Sol. All she could do was to avert her gaze in different direction, praying for magic to happen.

***

The graduation day finally took place, and while she was supposed to become freer, as she envisioned herself to be, Sol was not even content with where she stood in this life.

If there exists another life for me, would I live it differently?

Would I stayed home, faced Haven properly, abandoning option of ever meeting Min, the boy or make friends like Lion and his band-mates?

Would I ever

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