Married to the SAS by Frances Nicholson

Author:Frances Nicholson [Nicholson, Frances]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Social Science, Europe, History, Great Britain, Historical, Biography & Autobiography, Military, Women's Studies, Women, Special Forces (Military Science), Aviation, Army Spouses
ISBN: 9781857821666
Publisher: Blake
Published: 1997-05-15T00:00:00+00:00

FRANCES NICHOLSON

I knew something dramatic had happened because Andy had never behaved in such an off-hand manner when he returned home, no matter how shattered he felt. I kept my distance and kept quiet, hoping that, in time, his mood would change and he would confide in me.

But the atmosphere remained strained and unnatural. Andy didn’t say a word to me, neither did he make any move to kiss or hold or cuddle me. Throughout that evening, I wondered what on earth could have happened to cause Andy to cut me off in such a hurtful way and I sensed open hostility.

He told me he was tired and needed an early night, and I turned off the lights and went to join him. As I lay in the dark next to him, he made no attempt to touch or kiss me, or even to say ‘goodnight’.

‘What’s going on, Andy?’ I asked.

‘Nothing,’ he replied, ‘I’m just tired.’

‘No,’ I answered, ‘Something’s up.’

There was a moment’s silence. Then he said, ‘Frances, I don’t love you any more.’

I said nothing, struck dumb by this bald statement. Receiving no response, he said a few moments later, ‘But don’t worry, it’s probably only a phase.’

With that I got out of bed, went downstairs and made myself a cup of tea. I needed to think. I went into the living-room, sat on the sofa and pulled Jo’s baby blanket over me to keep warm. Without realising what was happening, I felt the tears on my cheeks and I let them flow, feeling lonely and unwanted.

Minutes later, I could have laughed out loud in frustration and hopelessness because I suddenly heard

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