Forgotten Yesterday by Renee Ericson

Author:Renee Ericson [Ericson, Renee]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Amazon: B00HBJD0EG
Published: 2013-12-14T00:00:00+00:00

Ten

Soft light shines through the window into my apartment. I sit on the bed, running my fingertips repeatedly over my lips. Touching every cell. A phantom tingle ghosts on the sensitive nerves, wanting more. Brent’s kiss has left an impression and I am living in my dreamy imagination, like a schoolgirl. He kissed me and I felt it in every inch of my soul and every empty space waiting to be filled. It’s a feeling you don’t know how much you crave until it’s within reach.

What am I doing? He leaves tomorrow and I’m taking a pleasant stroll down memory lane. Why? I know the answer to that. It’s because whether I like it or not, he makes me feel alive and I haven’t felt like this in years. It’s like there’s something hidden within me that only he can tap in to. There seems to be only one key holder to that special place, and it’s Brent.

I get a glass of juice from the refrigerator and pace around the room.

This is a dangerous game I’m playing with my heart. I know it will hurt when he leaves. The pain will crush me and the longing will intensify, but to not feel his lips on mine at least one more time is something I cannot risk. I need to feel them again.

There is saying that love is a drug and maybe I’m craving a “hit.” Addiction is something that admittedly runs in my family and I’m no stranger to its symptoms. Brent feels much like a craving. A craving that comes with a history of hurt and consequences.

Walking to my closet, I crouch down and open the bottom drawer that holds everything I’ve hidden away. I push aside the holiday items, don’t even open the envelope containing my best and worst memories, and pull out the old photo album.

I take it back to my bed, sit down, crossing my legs in front of me, and consider opening the book. Am I doing this? Nodding to myself, I leap into my past.

Flipping through the plastic pages pocketed with images, I skim over the ones of my family until I find the first one of Brent and I. The prom picture is a typical one with goofy, plastered smiles and a youthful feel. I laugh a little realizing that my dress was green and Brent wore a matching tie, similar to the colors we had on at brunch.

I turn the pages again, coming to rest on a full spread of images of us at our hometown lake. The whole sheet contains a variety of candid photos. There are ones of us in our swimsuits, in a canoe, with our friends, and with Dragon, my high school furry companion. The snapshots then progress to when we first started college. I remember being so excited that we were going to the same school. It seemed like the stars were aligned for us to be together forever. Such a foolish and naïve fantasy. Some things just aren’t meant to be, despite how much you may want them.

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