Before the Wrongs by Bella Emy

Author:Bella Emy
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: romance, love, steamy, hot, contemporary, military, navy, seals, sailor, soldier
Publisher: Bella Emy
Published: 2018-11-10T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter Eight

IN MAY OF 1996, WE were married. As a wedding gift, I bought some property nearby and built our first home from the ground up. Allie was overjoyed. The night of our wedding, before leaving for our honeymoon the following day, I blindfolded her and told her I had a surprise for her. She had no idea. When I brought her over to our new house and removed the blindfold, she stood there in awe. I would always have that look on her face etched in my mind. She was beautiful in her white gown, hair up, curls cascading down from the sides, and her make-up still completely intact. Our first home would be our one and only home where we would raise our kids. But that’s another story.

I wish I could say my PTSD was completely under control once we got engaged, but it wasn’t. Even throughout our marriage, it still got to me.

I cried. I cried a lot at that point in my life, but I have to say that Allie was there every step of the way. She held me. She comforted me, and I was not about to let the love of my life go.

The nightmares began about a month after we were wed. Every single night like clockwork, I’d wake up screaming my head off, a lot of the time with Allie trying to hold me close.

“Shhh! Baby, baby, it’s okay, I’m here,” she whispered, rocking me back and forth.

“No! Mick! No! Oh my God, the bombs!” I’d scream.

She’d keep holding me tight, hoping I’d be able to fall back to sleep, but it just seemed as though my screams would grow louder and louder. Neighbors would bang on our door at two in the morning, begging for us to keep it down, failing to realize what was happening to me.

No matter what Allie was to try though, it seemed like the only way to calm me down was by getting the both of us naked and forcing herself on top of me. As I’d easily slide into her, my screams would suddenly turn into moans of ecstasy, and the pleasure would completely take hold of me. It was the quickest and most effective way of helping me overcome one of my episodes.

With Allie by my side and trips to the psychiatrist’s office on a weekly basis, I was able to keep my fears and alarming memories under control. I was put on medication to help as well, but I honestly think that if Allie hadn’t been with me, I would have never been able to get over or at least find a way to live through the bits and pieces of my past.

Apart from my anxiety and nightmares getting to me, Allie and I had a great marriage. We were always intimate as often as we could be; I vowed to myself that I would make sure every day that we were married I’d be there for her in any way that she needed me.

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