Forever by E. Davies

Author:E. Davies [Davies, E.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2018-06-22T16:00:00+00:00

14

Tristan

“I want to work. I don’t care if it’s for stupid commercials. If I’m not getting work, I’m basically just waiting to be slowly pushed out of Hollywood.”

Tristan paced back and forth in Bobby’s office, his hands folded behind his back as he stepped around the piles of paperwork. They seemed to build up whenever Bobby’s personal assistant took one of those rare days off.

He worked best spreading casting calls and photos and that kind of shit on the floor. Like an actor’s process, Tristan didn’t question it.

“You’ve got a fire under your ass all of a sudden,” Bobby told him. “I thought you were done with demeaning roles. We were moving your brand toward leading man. Because you wanted to play straight.”

Tristan snorted quietly and shook his head. “It’s not worth my career over. Either I work or I find a new industry. I appreciate being able to pay my bills—I mean, I make more than the average underemployed actor in town. I get that. But I’m never going to break out at this rate.”

“No,” Bobby agreed, to his surprise. “You want the honest truth, Tristan?”

“Please.” Tristan turned on his feel to face the man, staring across his cluttered desk at him.

He’d trusted Bobby with his career for the last three years, and Bobby hadn’t let him down. He’d managed to find Tristan enough work. Not great work, but he wouldn’t be living in the place he did without Bobby’s help—and the help of the investment advisor Bobby had pointed him toward. When Bobby spoke, Tristan listened.

“You need to either commit to working your ass off and going to everything I send you, and you trust me to steer you right, or you find another career where you’re self-directed.”

Tristan blinked a few times. “Self-directed?”

“You take the reins a lot. And I respect that. It means you care. But it also means I can’t send you to jobs without you side-eyeing me,” Bobby said.

Tristan choked back his defensiveness and breathed for a few moments, making himself sit with the criticism. Something about it must have been true, because it stung to hear put so plainly. Finally, he nodded. “Okay. Yeah. I do turn down some work. And I was pissed off about the commercials.”

“They wanted someone to play camp.”

“I’m not camp.” It wasn’t a bad thing, but to someone who’d worked hard not to be seen that way, it was scary to think people might see what he tried to keep hidden.

“You’re not,” Bobby agreed, not rising to Tristan’s defensiveness. “I don’t think you should be afraid of playing around with the way you’re seen, though. You’re a goddamn actor. The less like yourself you are, the better a job you’re doing. That doesn’t translate to real life. Don’t screw up your life in the pursuit of a career.”

Tristan’s cheeks burned. That hit home even more than Bobby’s last statement. All he let himself say was, “Oh.”

“The more you hide yourself, the more you have to hide, the less energy you have to put into putting masks on top of your masks.

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