Anger by May Sarton

Author:May Sarton
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
ISBN: 9781497685468
Publisher: Open Road Media

When Ned left for the office on the Friday of her departure Anna was packing in the bedroom.

“Well, I’m off,” he said in the doorway.

Anna stood with a nightgown in her hands, and waited for him to wish her luck. She waited perhaps five seconds, looking at him in disbelief. When he was still silent, just standing there, she said, “You might at least wish me luck, Ned.”

“You don’t need it.”

At that moment Anna felt such pressure in her head that she was afraid of cracking into pieces. She bent over the suitcase and folded her nightgown carefully and laid it there. She heard the door close and Fonzi bark. Then she burst into tears of sheer fury and frustration. “You beast,” she murmured, “you cold, mean beast!” But she knew she could not afford tears, not now, not with a concert forty-eight hours away, not with a rehearsal at five that afternoon. She went on packing and forced the tears back. When she was ready to leave she called her mother.

“Ned wouldn’t even wish me luck, Mama,” she said in a perfectly controlled voice.

“You must put Ned out of your mind, Anna,” said her mother firmly. “You will go and give a great performance. This, your talent, is your own responsibility and gift.”

“It’s so lonely, Mama.”

“Of course it is, of course. Every performer is absolutely alone when it comes to the crunch. You’ve always been alone, dear, and you always will be.”

“It didn’t matter when I was really alone. Now I feel torn in two. Beaten.”

“Stop it, Anna. You can’t afford this.”

“I have to go,” Anna was suddenly in a panic.

“Good luck, Anna”

“Thanks. I needed to hear that.”

On the plane Anna felt a surge of relief and as they circled Boston and she looked down for a moment on the Public Gardens, she was happy to be cut off from all the pain, on her way to her own real life, to that stage, that orchestra and Bach, whom—she felt it in her chest where her voice lay like some great animal waiting for its release—she would serve well.

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