The Truths about Dating and Mating by Jaycee DeLorenzo

Author:Jaycee DeLorenzo [DeLorenzo, Jaycee]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: cookie429, Kat, Extratorrents
Publisher: Jaycee DeLorenzo
Published: 0101-01-01T00:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

The following afternoon, I sat at a table in the library, scribbling in my spiral notebook. I’d pause on occasion to consult my notes or one of the books on case-study formatting lying open on the table’s surface, but would immediately return to my writing, fearful if I stopped for one instant too long, if I allowed any distractions to enter my mind, the thoughts would leak from my ears and fall away into obscurity.

Thanks to Parker’s candid remarks and opinions on my lifestyle-choices the night before, I found the opening I needed to begin my case-study for Dr. Wilkinson’s class. My hand shook with rage when I’d written his words on the first line of the empty page – “Everyone assumes you’re a whore!” – but I’d welcomed the fury, fed off it, allowed it to guide my hand as I documented the injustice and cruelty of a community that condemned me for being a strong, independent woman who embraced my sexuality, while endeavoring to educate others about theirs.

I stuck strictly to what would appear as “the subject’s quotes,” too fired-up to write the “sociologist’s fair and unbiased study and analysis” of my own life. And a little apprehensive. To relate the chronology of my life and expose some of the skeletons hiding in my closet was more than a little daunting. I understood the rationale behind it – one’s past shapes them into the person they are today – but I wasn’t ready for self-analysis just yet. There were some things I didn’t want to share with a relative stranger, even if that stranger was a professor I liked and admired. And like everyone in my position, or so I imagined, there were certain truths about my life and who I was that I had a hard enough time facing.

Only after I’d completed my seventh page and my palm began to cramp did I finally toss my pen aside. A wince twisted my mouth as I flexed my hand and rolled my arms in an attempt to ease the ache between my shoulder blades. Sitting hunched over for the last hour had put strain on my back and I was really feeling the discomfort.

I reached into my bag and pulled out my cell to check the time. It was nearing three; Ian would be meeting me at my apartment at four so we could go over the website project.

The corners of my mouth turned down and my chest tightened. I took the blame for the whole night. Like so many girls before me, I’d let myself believe he was interested in more than just a good time. But he’d never actually indicated he was developing feelings for me, just that his feelings weren’t brotherly. And I shouldn’t have been surprised. That was who he was.

We just didn’t want the same things. I wanted more than sex. I wanted someone who wouldn’t think it was okay to check out other girls when expressing an interest in me. I wanted someone who’d look at me like I was his whole world.

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