The Guy in the Window by Dee Cara

Author:Dee, Cara [Dee, Cara]
Language: eng
Format: azw3
Published: 2019-11-08T16:00:00+00:00

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Ev looked so peaceful lying there on his stomach. One arm under his pillow, his back exposed, and one knee poking out from under the duvet.

Shell-shocked was a more fitting term to describe my state.

There was something seriously wrong with me. He’d made it perfectly clear that I was his first experience with a man, and what had I done? Gone zero to sixty after one kiss.

I wanted to join Ev in bed again; I wanted to cuddle up in his arms and pretend we were some happy-go-lucky couple, but I couldn’t. I’d crossed some fucked-up lines with him tonight, and so I stayed here, sitting in the chair in the corner of his bedroom, which I suspected he mostly used for draping ties over.

Leaning forward, I rested my elbows on my knees and tented my hands in front of my face, and I kept staring. I kept wincing too, whenever I thought of something I’d done to him. Good Christ, that wasn’t how you gave one a special first time. He was confused and completely new. I didn’t know what he and Melinda had done to each other, but Ev was taking his first breaths after twenty-five years of existing in a soul-sucking void. Or however long it’d been. I assumed they’d been happy at some point.

“Fuck.” I looked down and let my fingers disappear into my hair, and I tugged at the ends.

I’d pulled his fucking hair. It was an inch or two too short to get a good grip, but that hadn’t stopped me from yanking on it. And the way he’d responded to me… Holy hell.

But we could get on board with some crazy shit when we were drunk.

He was likelier to regret everything in the morning, and I would be here, remembering our chemistry, how he’d pulled at my heartstrings without realizing it, how he’d seduced me, how he’d made me lower my guard and reveal so much of myself.

In retrospect, I understood that the friends I’d had who’d fallen for straight men at some point were better off. Because they’d known it wouldn’t lead anywhere. There was no more definite way to get closure and try to move on. Meanwhile, I’d be here for-fucking-ever, wondering maybe, maybe, maybe.

Ev was too much for me to be able to resist. He was kind and professional, sweet and dirty, affectionate and rough, hella smart and fucking clueless. His tentative approach to life made me wanna be there to hold his hand. And spend my nights pushing him the way I’d done…

I blew out a frustrated breath and peered over at him again.

Just thinking about the way he fumbled sometimes had me fighting a smile. He’d done well for himself career-wise. He’d made partner and was good at what he did. He had the biggest heart too. But he was just like the rest of us who didn’t have our shit together, and I fucking loved those imperfections.

Behind the thin veil of an uptight businessman was

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