SIR by R.J. Lewis

Author:R.J. Lewis [Lewis, R.J.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2021-05-29T23:00:00+00:00

Aidan

I can’t sleep.

My brain is quiet, yet my body is wound tight. What I did with Ivy took the edge off my yearning, but only for a short while.

I wind up pacing the halls, trying to work a thought into my head, but all I keep seeing is her repulsion of me.

She wanted me gone.

What we did was a mistake, she called it. I feel a sting in my chest. Am I such a charity case that my assistant would go so far as to stroke my cock to help placate me? I made the mistake of revealing the depths of my thoughts for her—

I look up, sensing presence nearby. I whip around, scanning the upper-level living room. I see a figure on the armchair. I feel his heavy eyes on me—the emptiness lingering in their depths in a way I am so familiar with. It’s ironic we have more in common than we care to admit. He will go so far to detach himself from me, as if spending my money is so appalling, he takes it as a form of weakness.

Alex would rather live in the streets than take a penny off me.

I approach him, shoving my hands in my pockets. I stand before him, and we stare at one another in the darkness. He will never speak first—he refuses to.

“What are we doing, Alex?” I wonder, and I truly want to know. I want to get to the bottom of his hatred.

“I am sitting, enjoying the quiet,” he mutters, vacantly.

“That’s not what I meant.” I continue to study him. “Are we so estranged—have I damaged us to the point of no return?”

Alex’s gaze hardens. “You remember what you were like, Aidan. Do you think one can look past that?”

I frown, feeling a sharp tear in my being. “I would do anything to take it all back—”

“Yet you’re still drinking, still being a jackass, still inviting women into your bed—”

“I’ve invited nobody into my bed, and I’m not trying to be a jackass, Aidan. The drinking soothes me, just like it soothes you to invite countless women into your bed. Not sure why you’re admonishing me for the very behavior you partake in.”

His lips twist. “How can you not know? How can you be so fucking oblivious?”

I wait for him to expand, but he doesn’t. “How can I not know what?”

Alex’s chest quickens, but he forces himself quiet, and I suddenly realize what he’s not saying. “Just tell me what I don’t know about my other life, so that I can stop trying to dissect these riddles. I’m in the darkness right now, can’t you see that? I’m confused—”

“You don’t deserve to know,” he interrupts, harshly. “You don’t deserve the good things you had. Because you’re back to being a heartless cunt—”

“You think I want to be heartless?” I peer at him intently, feeling pulses of anger thrum through my body. “I’ve just come to you now, haven’t I? I’m bearing myself to you, Alex, because I want to repair things.

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