Sex, Lies & Nikolai by R. J. Lewis

Author:R. J. Lewis [Lewis, R. J.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Amazon: B01K5VSY9M
Publisher: UNKNOWN
Published: 2016-08-08T23:00:00+00:00

*

I stir sometime later, and the floor doesn’t feel so hard anymore. Actually, it feels really soft. I open my eyes, realizing quickly that I’m not in the kitchen. I’m…in bed.

I whip my head around and find Scarlett still sleeping on her side, Rumple to her chest. My hands fly to my breasts, conscious of the dress wrapped around my hips, but I don’t meet bare skin. Confused, I look down at my body, surprised when I find my spaghetti top and lounge shorts are on me instead.

Nikolai dressed me.

Christ, how passed out was I?

I sit up in bed and look around my bedroom, searching for him. The unit is completely still. I don’t hear a peep.

I slide off the bed. I’m off-balance and shattered as I meander out of the room in a groggy state. He’s not on the couch and he’s not in the kitchen. I come to a stop when my eyes connect to the tile floor and then at the time on the oven. 3:25am.

I’m disconcerted. If it wasn’t for the ache between my legs, I wouldn’t believe what we did.

I turn back around and go to the bathroom. I shove my shorts down to my ankles and run my fingers between my thighs and along my folds, startled at how wet I am. Then I strip entirely, my moves frantic. Because there’s a knot in my stomach. I feel dirty. Like I need to wash what we did off. I don’t know why I do this because Nikolai wasn’t like the other men. They didn’t just take and leave their cum behind.

Still.

It’s habit, and I need it off.

I run the shower and climb in. At a frenzied pace, I run my bar of soap over every inch of my body and then I dig my fingers inside my channel, dragging out what my mind believes is his cum. I’m not right in the head. I know that right now. But I’m shaking everywhere, not understanding how he could make me feel the way he did. How he ripped those moans out of my mouth. Why my body bent to him, unwilling to stop until it got what it wanted.

What I think is solely cum isn’t. It’s mixed in with my pleasure.

That can’t be. I shake my head, lying to myself. It’s mostly his pleasure, not mine. I’m just the vessel he used to get there. That’s the whole point of this, right?

I mount the lies atop of one another, believing in them. It makes the shakes go away. I start to nod my head, relieved by my distorted truth. He didn’t do anything to my body that I enjoyed. Yes, that’s right.

He did nothing. I felt… nothing.

Minutes later, I dry myself off and change into something else. I throw what he dressed me in into the laundry basket and bury it under the other clothes. Then I slide into bed and wrap my arm around Scarlett. She’s so warm and cuddly. She’s my familiarity. My anchor to reality.

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