Next to Forever (Never Letting Go) by Moose S

Author:Moose, S [Moose, S]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2014-01-21T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter Thirteen

Connor

She’s gone. I let her go without saying anything. What kind of man am I?

Watching Erin walk away from me breaks me, but I’m the fool who never told her about my past with Olivia. I stand there like a broken man and watch the love of my life walk away. I want to run to her and tell her how sorry I am, but I know she needs time to think about things, and she deserves that time. She can’t leave me though, and I’ll fight for her until the day I die. I hope she’s going home, so I decide to run to the florist and buy flowers and a teddy bear to try to make things better. After making my purchase, I leave the shop and check my phone. No messages or calls.

Getting in my car, I pull out into traffic and head back home, hoping she’s there. I get back in record time and run inside. “Erin!”

Silence.

There’s no one home. Sitting on the ground, I hold my head and feel the tears coming down. Her face plays through my mind and everything starts falling apart in front of me. Erin isn’t going to forgive me, and she’s going through the pregnancy alone. Why didn’t I tell her about my past? Hitting my head against the wall, my body grows numb. Everything slips through my fingers. I can’t be in love or do anything right. Erin’s my world, and without her, what’s the point? I get up from the ground and try calling her again. It rings six times before going to voicemail.

“Hi, you’ve reached Erin! Sorry that I missed your call, but leave me something sweet and I’ll get back to ya!”

“Erin, baby. Please answer or call me back. I’m so sorry. I should’ve told you about Olivia, but baby, I was scared. Please call me or something. Let me know that you’re okay. Please.” I walk up the stairs and go into our bedroom. Her vanilla scent fills our room. I love how she smells. My face goes diving first into our bed. Wrapping my head around the fucked up day makes me nauseous, and I’m ready to tear the room apart.

I toss my phone on the kitchen counter, go to the liquor cabinet, and pull out a bottle of scotch. Pouring the dark brown liquid in a glass and tossing it back, the liquid burns my throat and I want more. I pour a few more glasses and bring the bottle to the deck. The suns out and it’s cool outside but I don’t give a shit. Messing up with Erin is the last thing I want to do. The image of her broken heart flashes through my mind. I can’t get rid of it. I bring the bottle to my lips and drink more. The pain in my heart and chest build and the lump in the back of my throat.

She’s the best thing that’s happened to me. She completes me and makes me brave, but I’m blind.

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