In Deep by Terra Elan McVoy

Author:Terra Elan McVoy
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Publisher: Simon Pulse

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AS SOON AS MY ALARM goes off, wiped is the only thing that comes to mind. I hit snooze three times, which I hardly ever do once. I could stay here. I probably should stay here. I need to be sharp, rested. These last few practices before next weekend’s meet are no joke. But then I remember Gavin last night—that cocky laugh. I can’t back down, pussy out. I cannot let him faze me. Plus, it’ll be fun to show Kate the collage.

Downstairs in Louis’s office, though, right before we have to leave, the freaking printer is out of both red and yellow ink, so Kate’s poster comes out all weird. There’s no time to change it and try again, and I’m so tired and so annoyed—still flustered from Gavin—I almost cry. But instead I suck in a breath, press down the frustration, and go grim-faced to the car, because I still need to face Woodham and the library and the homework I actually did for once, plus Kate and those summaries, and on top of that, figuring out what the hell is wrong with Charlie and why he didn’t want to hang out with me yesterday. Not to mention practice later, and how to deal with Gavin and Grier. God damn it. I hate people. I hate people so much.

When Charlie sees me in the lunchroom, though, it doesn’t seem like there is anything wrong with him. His smile is just as happy as it always is. Like there wasn’t anything weird at all about him turning down an afternoon make-out in order to hang with Ethan. Like I don’t partly blame him for my inability to sleep, for me still being up when Gavin came over, for my light being on, for Gavin being able to figure out so easily which window was mine. Though I half-dozed through my first three periods, now my eyes are grit and I feel heavier than I did getting out of bed this morning.

I stiffen my spine, clench my butt. I can’t let any of that rule over me now, and I definitely don’t want Charlie to think I’m uncool about him hanging with his friends.

“Where’s the gang?” I try to say brightly, though it doesn’t come out near as friendly as I mean it to.

He reaches for me. “Off campus, I think.”

I stay standing, beside my chair. “Did you want to go?”

“There isn’t really enough room for us in Maria’s car, and I know they’re not totally your thing anyway.”

Why he has to say something like that, I don’t know. I’ve been totally fine with them. Jesus.

“I like those guys plenty, it’s just—”

“Maybe I wanted some time with you, huh? You let a guy just have that?” His eyes are sparkly. “Come on. Let’s get our food.”

I pile on potato salad, even extra chicken breast this time. Boiled eggs. Anything that will give me some energy. While we eat, I decide to tell him about Kate and Connor and the collage I did for her last night so I won’t just sit here and bitch, letting anything about Gavin slip.

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