Illusion (Illusion Series Book 1) by Karla Lopez

Author:Karla Lopez [Lopez, Karla]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2020-01-05T06:00:00+00:00

Austin

I WAKE UP FEELING what day it is in every fucking bone in my body. It makes me want to fall apart or hurt someone to the amount of pain I'm currently feeling. Today marks nine years when the most important thing was taken away from me.

My family.

Apart from Emma they were everything to me. And every fucking year is a constant reminder that this day nine years ago I could have died with them. Every year I wish nothing more than to have died with them, but this year is different. It still fucking hurts the same, but I somehow am grateful I'm here, with Emma. I don't know where it happened where she became someone that I was willing to live for, I wasn't even willing to live for my stepsiblings, my friends, not even Liam.

Liam has been my fucking best friend since the womb and I still made him suffer by knowing I didn't want to live and was willing to throw my life away at any minute. We've come a long way since that day where my whole life turned dark, but I know Liam has doubts and is scared I'll go back to that dark place. And I can't predict the future considering I might fall down the same hole.

I check the clock. It reads four in the morning. I'm leaving the house without making a sound. My father gives me strict rules not to be in the house or anywhere near him on this day. This day is rough for him too. He lost a wife, a child, but instead of being grateful I survived, he feels the exact opposite. He hates the fact that I did survive. For the longest time, I thought he might love me more if I had died, but in all reality my father never loved me. I was never the son he desired. I was a skinny kid who just loved to read. A kid who didn't want to play a sport or go to college to be a lawyer. The older I get the more my father's hatred grows for me.

I go to the trail where I met Emma. It's my favorite trail. Not only because of the view, but also, because I met a pretty golden eye girl here. Since I'm not seeing her today, I need to fill myself with her memory. On this day I don't talk to anyone and Emma doesn't know about this day and I don't plan on telling her. This day makes me feel ugly and disgusting and I never want her to see me that way. Liam always tries to call to check in on me, but I've told him not to several times and he doesn't listen, so I always turn off my phone.

I check the time again before turning off my phone and placing it in the glove compartment. It's 4:30 am, I begin to run until I can't feel my legs any longer. My lungs are

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