If I Can Give You That by Michael Gray Bulla
Author:Michael Gray Bulla
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: HarperCollinsPublishers
Published: 2022-12-08T00:00:00+00:00
Fifteen
I DONâT TELL MOM WHAT happened with Lucas that night, but I try to bring it up before Plus the next day.
Sheâs in her room, lying in bed with the covers pulled as far up as theyâll go, just her head peeking out while she watches something on her computer. I plop down on her bed. âWhat are you watching?â
âHow Itâs Made,â she says.
âOh.â I peer around to see her laptop screen and watch it with her for a few minutes, trying not to make it so obvious that I have something important on my mind. Only when the show has moved from talking about rice cookers to folding chairs does Mom press Pause.
âDo you have any plans tonight?â she asks.
âI have Plus. Why?â
âI was thinking about ordering pizza, but I wonât if youâre getting food with your friends.â
âNah, Iâll probably head straight home after the meeting.â
She nods. âHow was the game, by the way? I didnât get a chance to ask you when I got home.â
This is my opening. âActually . . .â
From her bedside table, her phone rings. I see the name lighting up the screen before she can answer.
Lucas.
Because of course it is.
The words I was going to say die in my throat.
âHello?â
I can just barely hear Lucasâs muffled voice on the other end of the line. âHey, Ana.â
I get up from the bed. I feel sick.
âGael,â Mom calls after me, and I stop at the doorway, turning around to offer her a halfhearted smile.
The concerned look she gives me doesnât lessen, even when I say, âIâm gonna go take a shower.â
I donât wait for a response before I leave, shutting the door behind me.
This weekâs Plus meeting is about bisexuality and pansexuality, the differences and similarities between them, and why some people might prefer one label over the other. Dakota, whoâs pan, leads the meeting. I spend most of the time listening to everyone else, but at one point, we stray off that topic and talk about queer awakenings instead.
âDid you guys ever watch Teen Titans?â one girl says. âI had the biggest crush on Raven.â
That leads people to talk about some of their earliest crushes. After a few minutes, Annie raises her hand.
âI feel kind of like the odd one out most of the time,â she says. âI didnât really start wondering if I was queer until last year, and Iâm still not sure what term fits. Most of my life I just sort of assumed I was straight, and I think I mightâve had crushes on guys when I was younger, but Iâm not really sure if those were actual crushes or if I was just trying to fit in?â She looks down. âIâve liked mostly girls the past few years, but I donât know if that makes my earlier feelings less real, you know?â
A person to Annieâs left raises their hand. Dakota gestures for them to speak.
âI definitely get that,â they say. âAnd I donât know about you, but for me, being genderfluid also kind of complicates it.
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