Flaming Desire - Part 5 (An Alpha Billionaire Romance) by Grey Helen

Author:Grey, Helen [Grey, Helen]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2015-10-19T07:00:00+00:00

Chapter 4

When I woke up, dawn was just beginning to thread its way into my room. For a second I was confused, and then I glanced toward the chair between my bedside and the window. He was gone. Had he been here at all or had I dreamed it? I turned my head and my nose caught a whiff of wood smoke. No. I hadn't dreamed it. Matt had been here. For a second I fought back tears, but forced myself to smile. He had pleasured me, and I remembered that, vividly.

I also remember what he told me before I fell into a deep and dreamless sleep. He wasn't sure whether he was going to return to New Mexico. While I listened to the activity starting up outside my door, shift change bringing with it the sound of low voices talking outside in the hall, I contemplated my feelings about that. Matt was a billionaire. He could do whatever he damned well pleased. I wouldn't begrudge him any decision he made for his own sense of well-being, peace, and contentment.

Matt deserved that for himself, and he deserved it from me. I was the one who had gone and fallen in love with him, and that was not on him. I had never felt this way about anyone, and while it was bittersweet, I couldn't help but remember the Shakespeare sonnet, “Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.” So corny, but oh so true.

I was sure that someday, either in the hospital here or down in New Mexico, that I would see Matt began. I knew he wouldn't leave, permanently at least, without saying a proper goodbye. That thought gave me a bit of comfort. Until then, I knew I had to focus on getting better. Going home. Getting back to work.

Getting back to normal.

Would I ever feel normal again? How long would thoughts of Matt burrow into nearly every waking thought? I relished the scent he left behind on the pillow. It brought me a sense of comfort. Despite my best efforts to be positive, I hovered between a sense of heart-wrenching loss and gratitude. Gratitude that I had managed to cross paths with someone like Matt. That we had shared some commonalities, and undoubtedly an intense sexual attraction to one another. Yes, I had fallen in love with him, and now I could admit it without hesitance, without any qualms. Whether that love was reciprocated I had no control over, and I wasn't going to force it.

The decision I made at that moment lifted the burden of uncertainty from my shoulders. It was then that I realized that I was trying to force the issue. That I had pursued him up there on the mountain, wanting to know how he felt about me as if it would change or make a difference regarding how I felt about him. It didn't. It wouldn't.

While I hoped that Matt would decide to come back to New

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