Doomed Romance by Christine Leigh Heyrman
Author:Christine Leigh Heyrman [Heyrman, Christine Leigh]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Knopf Doubleday Publishing Group
Published: 2021-02-09T00:00:00+00:00
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So many devils beset Elnathan Gridley. There was his disgust at how cavalierly Jeremiah Evarts had delivered the boardâs decision, telling him that âI might feel myself free.â Free from his engagement, the lawyer meant, as if Elnathan wished to be rid of the woman he loved. There was his shock and hurt at learning that Martha had resigned from the boardâs serviceâthat the committee had simply consented to her request. How could she have given up their dreams? There was his jealousy, already aroused by Thomasâs revelations and now deepened at what the committee called her âindecision of character.â This fig leaf of language made it all the worse, a studied vagueness meant to conceal that Martha had kept two lovers in play, gaming to cheat spinsterhood. It enraged him, having to ârelinquish his claimâ to so inferior a rival, and that loss only strengthened the passion he felt for her.
Writing to Martha about a week after the Prudential Committeeâs decision, Elnathan admitted that the whole episode had been âpainful in the extremeâ because âno one ever did, probably no one ever will, have that place in my affections which you have had, and which you seem likely to retain.â Nonetheless, he knew that she could ânever be made happy by all the kind attentions, which the love of one detained on her account from Missionary service could bestow.â At first glance, that line reads like a compliment to Marthaâs devotion: conscience could not allow her to cheat all those heathen souls of Elnathanâs ministry. On second reading, it sounds like more of a kiss-off: Donât expect me to stay home in order to marry you. But the third time through, yet another meaning emerges: he was telling her that he knew that her interest in marrying him had depended on their going abroad together. If that made her the model of a self-denying Christian, it also made him less than the love of her life.
Miserable as he was, Elnathan acquitted himself as he believed a Christian gentleman should. He was generous, telling Martha that Thomas loved her and addingâperhaps a barb lurked hereâthat she would reciprocate the schoolmasterâs affection. After formally releasing her from their engagement and bidding her an âaffectionate farewell,â he added almost playfully, âAnd now Miss Parker, permit me as a friend to have a little friendly conversation with you, and to request you hereafter to favor me occasionally with a friendly letter.â He assured her that âmy estimate of your character is lessened little, if any, by all that has been disclosed.â He repaid her many falsehoods by insisting that he found nothing in her behavior that âlooks like lying or deceiving.â He encouraged her to take heart and strove to restore her confidence. âYour character is not lost,â he felt certain, and in his estimate she would always be a remarkable woman. âFew indeed, can fill the place which you are capable of filling,â he reminded her, and because of
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