Dark Paradise: A Revelation Series Novel (The Revelation Series Book 6) by Randi Cooley Wilson

Author:Randi Cooley Wilson [Cooley Wilson, Randi]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2019-11-11T23:00:00+00:00

15

Into the Unknown

NASSA

Fighting back tears, I press a hand to his chest. Under my palm, Gage’s heart beats wildly, proving he still has one. Then again, I’ve always known he had one. If he didn’t, he’d feel nothing, instead of feeling everything so deeply. He licks his lips slowly, like he wants to taste me, and a small shiver runs through me at the motion.

Overwhelmed by his words, I look over at his stone state bed.

“You’re asking for total surrender without a formal link,” I rasp.

“Blood links and mate marks are just symbols, buttercup.”

“Symbols with significant meanings,” I point out.

He motions to his stone state bed. “This is what I can offer.”

Why am I even contemplating this?

Why am I not stopping this, knowing I can’t have it all with him?

Why am I talking to myself in my head?

I hiss in a breath, looking in his eyes for a hint of indecision—there’s none. Behind his gaze, all I see is a future—an ugly, messy one. Searching my heart, I decide I don’t care if a future with Gage is complicated; what isn’t with him? I’ll take the broken pieces that are left of him, because even a small piece of him is better than having nothing at all.

Loving him means never loving a whole being, but that doesn’t mean the broken parts left behind don’t deserve to be loved. As we stand here, face to face, Gage watches the indecision waging a war in me as time stands still. I don’t want to let him go. He’s become too important to me. To my existence. As I look into his gaze, slowly everything around me begins to still and become clear. I let go of any preconceived notions I carried of what our future would look like, any fairytale forever, and instead focus on what the reality is.

He thinks he has nothing to give, but that’s a lie.

He has everything to give, and he’s offering it to me.

My heart squeezes at the sadness etched onto his face. Yet it’s mixed with hope. Both are like a silent prayer, begging me to take all the hurt away and just love him.

And with that one look, I surrender everything I am to him.

Falling into the unknown.

Gage’s forehead drops to mine and his hands move to my waist. I feel his fingers press deep into my sides, holding on to me as if I’m his lifeline and his survival depends on it. I exhale slowly and just take in this moment, bracing myself, waiting for him to move.

He doesn’t.

The silence wraps around us and becomes almost suffocating.

Unsure what to do, I simply stand here, letting him hold on to me.

“I keep fighting all the voices in my head telling me I’m not enough,” he whispers.

All lies.

“I’ve been drowning in the dark for so long . . .” He trails off.

I know he has.

“I’m so tired.” His voice is worn and thin.

I move my forehead away from his, so I can look him in his shattered gaze.

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