Blue Room Confidentials: Vol. 2 by Kailin Gow

Author:Kailin Gow [Gow, Kailin]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Amazon: B01CCIHM1W
Goodreads: 29367164
Publisher: Sparklesoup.com
Published: 2016-02-28T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter 5

Xander Blue

So, what now? I sit out on my balcony, looking out over the sea. It's painful looking at the water, now – it reminds me so much of the blue Atlantic waves that swallowed up my beloved, my darling, my Marina. It reminds me of Staci, who used to lie here with me on that balcony and stretch out her taut, golden body in the summer sun, exposing her breasts and navel to my gaze and to my caress. It reminds me of a time when I used to be happy: a time before I was plunged into this unending numbness.

I am not an unhappy man. That much is true. I do not wallow in my pain the way some men might. I have put aside my grief for the good of the company, for the Blue name, for the success of the Blue Room and all our family enterprises. I still work. I still make money – more money, I think ruefully, than I will ever know or even care what to do with. And yet, for this, for everything, there is an emptiness inside me.

I do not weep. I never once cried – not since I learned of Marina's death. Even when I learned that Staci wished to leave me for Terrence I did not cry. Outwardly, I accepted it. I sighed, was gracious, even smiled and wished her well, the way gentlemen are supposed to do. I didn't cry. Not even when I was alone, wishing for all the world that I could punch a pillow, punch a hole in the wall, did I let myself tear up. I was a man, after all. I was strong, the way men are supposed to be, the way we're always told to be.

But now I feel the numbness, the darkness, overtaking me. My unhappiness is a gaping abyss threatening to swallow me up. I feel like the ground beneath my feet is constantly swaying, shifting. If I can't trust Marina's death, what can I trust?

I want to confront Jaymie. I want to ask her face to face who she is and why she is doing what she's doing. But I know I can't. There's no way she'll confess outright. If she is practicing a deception there must be a reason. So I do the only think I can think of doing. I talk to the only person who knows Jaymie better than I do, who trusts her – who must trust her for a reason. I take out my phone and I dial that number I've tried so hard to forget, but whose digits are etched on my brain.

“Hello?”

“Hi, Staci?”

I hear the recognition in her voice.

“Xander?”

“Staci – we need to meet right away.”

“Xander, I can't...”

“It's not about...” I sigh. “It's not about us. It's about the Blue Room. I need to talk to you. It's important. Where are you now?”

“I'm at home.”

“Home?” Then it hits me. The home she shares with Terrence now. Their happy domestic bliss. I clench my fists.

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