And the Sweet (Addiction Series Book 2) by Delilah Frost

Author:Delilah Frost [Frost, Delilah]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Luna Raya Books
Published: 2016-09-20T21:00:00+00:00

THIRTEEN

Sleep doesn’t come easy for me. I toss and turn, trying my best to not disturb Cecelia who seems just as restless. She manages to cry herself to sleep, in spite of, or perhaps because of my constant apologies. But I can’t stop them, even after I know she’s passed out. I need for her to realize how much I love her. I need for her to realize she is everything to me and I will forever hate myself for how I treated her. I will forever hate myself for how I made her feel about herself. I will never not be sorry.

By the time dawn arrives, I’ve slept no more than two hours. I’m so thankful I don’t work weekends and that I’m not required to be up and at a job site like my coworkers are. Resting on my side, on my dingy mattress in my shitty apartment, I watch the rise and fall of Cecelia’s chest. She’s not naked. Neither of us are. She fell asleep in one of my shirts and I’m in my boxers.

We didn’t have sex. After she exposed her agony, we both felt too exhausted for anything to happen. I did hold her all night though.

Carefully, so that I don’t disturb her, I lift my left hand and trail my fingers across her face. Her skin is so soft, so clear. For an addict, she’s never had skin issues. It’s still the silky olive it’s always been. I can see her eyes moving rapidly behind the lids, her eyelashes resting against her cheek so delicately. Brushing my thumb across her lips, I feel her sigh against it.

She’s so intoxicatingly beautiful. So completely captivating she actually steals my breath. I do not know how I got so lucky to have her love and devotion. From the moment when we were scared and lonely teenagers to this one right here; I can’t figure out how can possibly deserve not only her presence, but her affections.

With a glance around my apartment, I take a moment to think about my life.

I grew up in an affluent family, but you’d never have guessed it from how I view anything. While I never went without clothes or a roof over my head, to satisfy any need for attachment I may have had, I was forced onto a nanny or tutor. The fact Ben cares about me at all when we were kept separate for so much of my life is amazing to me.

Despite all of that, all of that lack of affection and love in my upbringing from people who should have given it no questions asked, I understand it so very well. I want it. I want it with Cecelia. I know the type of place I live in doesn’t really mean much in the grand scheme of things. As evident by the fact that again, my parents have money, but that didn’t mean I was given anything of value, and the most valuable being their love. But I also know there is a sense of pride from having nice things.

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