A Warm Place 4 by Crystal Candy

Author:Crystal Candy [Candy, Crystal]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2019-04-20T05:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER FOUR

I was a lot more focused than I’d been in the past two weeks as I left the house.

Our house.

Having Jessica and Hannah there really stuck a pin in me, really knocked it into perspective. I’d never really been about community before, to be totally honest. I was more of an isolationist. I didn’t really like being around people, and that hadn’t overly changed since the apocalypse. It had at first, but it didn’t really stick.

It was kind of like when you got a really big scare or some huge change happened, and you thought maybe it changed you, but a few months or half a year goes by and you slowly slide back into your old habits and you realize that it didn’t change you, not really. Because for the most part, people didn’t change.

But now I was beginning to wonder.

Maybe I didn’t like being around people because I’d never been around the right people. Sure, I’d had friends, and girlfriends, but, I don’t know, I’d never really clicked with any of them, if that makes sense. Or at least that’s what it felt like. I’d felt connections before, but there was something just there with Lara and Susan and Jessica, and maybe even Hannah. She was blunt and brash and kind of rude, but she wasn’t so much a bad person as maybe a little tactless. She was certainly mature for her age...but she was still just barely out of her teens.

Then again, what the fuck did I have to say? I was still in my mid-twenties.

I don’t know if I’d call myself mature for my age when I was growing up, but I did at least notice that I was a lot less prone to doing dumb shit. I never really got in trouble at school, I never picked fights, I never got to that point that like everyone else seems to go through where I hated my parents. I’d always felt a sense of responsibility for other people, to a certain degree. I’d help if I could. And I could help a lot nowadays.

That tended to lead to burnout where I’d just go off on my own and just help myself for awhile, if I could help it.

Would that happen here?

For some reason, I didn’t think so. I didn’t want to leave.

For a very long time, ever since I’d struck off on my own, I’d had this vague sense. This uncertain, nebulous notion of wanting to go somewhere. But where? Sometimes it was a town, sometimes it was just a direction, but I felt this feeling just urging me onward. It was what kept me from settling down anywhere.

And I realized, all at once, that I no longer felt that.

I didn’t want to move on, or go anywhere.

And that was a good feeling.

I struck out north after performing a sweep of the perimeter of our place, intending to search that two-story house I’d fucked that pale blonde chick Alicia in yesterday. Holy shit, had that really been yesterday? Your sense of time got fucked up when a lot of stuff was happening.

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