A Healing Story (Stories Book 3) by Denae Abrianna

Author:Denae, Abrianna [Denae, Abrianna]
Language: eng
Format: azw3, epub
Publisher: RTBT Publishing
Published: 2020-07-05T16:00:00+00:00

Matthias.

Well fuck.

I walked myself right into that one, didn’t I?

We said we were friends who kissed, but what does that really mean? Neil said he has stupid feelings. Does that mean he doesn’t want to have feelings for me?

I haven’t made things easy for him so I don’t blame him for thinking that way, but it’s an unexpected blow.

That jars me. Do I want him to be sure of his feelings for me? Do I have feelings for him?

I grip the edge of the table, bowing my head, I take a few deep breaths. The thing is, I do feel something for him. More than friendship. With every kiss it feels as though a flame ignites inside me and I don't know what to do with it, but I do know that I don't want to put it out.

“I’m sorry,” Neil says quietly, “I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable.”

“You didn’t.” Looking up I find his dark eyes filled with worry. “Surprised, yeah, but I’m not uncomfortable.”

“What are you saying?” he whispers.

I swallow, “I don’t mind if you feel things for me-”

“Stupid things,” he butts in.

I smile a little, “Right, the feelings are stupid, but I don’t mind that you have them. Because I might have some for you too.”

He freezes. “You better not be fucking with me.”

“Never. I might be a dick but I’m not a liar.”

He shoves away from the table. “So what? What do you want to do about it? What good is any of this?”

“Go on a date with me.”

“What?” he breathes.

“You want to figure out your stupid feelings? Go out with me. Let’s see if it’s worth it.”

“And if it’s not? What? We fuck up our friendship for nothing? I’m already getting attached, Matthias. I can’t go through that. Don’t you understand?”

“You won’t lose my friendship. I can promise you that, Neil. I need you a lot more than you need me.”

“I might be willing to put up with a lot from you, Matthias, but I refuse to be a fucking experiment.”

That stings, but it’s understandable.

“You know you’re more than that.”

“Do I? I know you have no problems sucking dick, but that doesn’t translate into other things. If I go on a date with you and it works out? I’ll want more. It’s been a long time since I’ve met someone who I felt things for. We both know that you’re not ready for what that means. You can barely admit that you’re not straight. To go on a date? To have it possibly lead to more?” He shakes his head, “no, I can't, I won’t do it. I refuse to live my life in a lie.”

I want to protest but I know he’s right.

Neil sighs, “I’m not asking you to come out to the world or anything. I would never do that to you. But I will require you to be more honest with me—and yourself—than ever.”

It’s my turn to push away from the table. I asked for this. Neil wasn’t asking for more than I could give, he was just being honest.

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