The Futile by Dane C. Johns

Author:Dane C. Johns [Johns, Dane C.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Dane Johns

Chapter Thirty-Three: Sacred Harp #49b

When Brie originally set out towards Remi’s room, she had two objectives:

1.) Get him to open up about the fears he was harboring.

2.) Finally come clean about how she leaked their band name and picture to TBN.

But as that little joke goes about best-laid plans…things didn’t quite work out that way. Still, as Brie stared at the ceiling in Remi’s room, she realized she was going to miss this place. Both the physical space of the school and the fleeting moment of contentment she felt within. Beneath her palm, Remi’s heart thumped like a bass drum. A faint cone of blue-gray early morning light shot through the part in the shades. Birds chirped wearily in the snow beyond the window. Brie pulled a breath of recycled air deep into her lungs. “If this isn’t nice, I don’t know what is,” she whispered to herself.

“It is nice. Isn’t it?” Remi asked without opening his eyes.

“It is.”

“What do you think’s going to happen next?” Remi kept his eyes closed.

“I honestly don’t know.”

“Do you think it’s going to be okay?”

“I don’t know. I hope so.”

“Hope?” Remi turned and blinked at her in mock surprise. “I’ve never heard you say that word before.”

“What? I say all kinds of words all the time. Just the other day I used ‘elucidate’ correctly in a sentence.” Brie dug her shoulder into him. “You don’t know me, fool.”

“I’m just saying for the person who thinks all religion is bullshit, you’re getting pretty close to throwing around the word ‘faith.’” Remi covered his mouth, trying (but failing) to mask the sour yet sweet smell of his morning breath.

Brie felt herself grinning before letting it fall away. “Faith’s never been the problem. My main issue with religion is that it’s both too complicated and too simple at the same time. Though, it should be kind of simple, everything’s pretty basic like I know I have a soul, and the more I’m aware of that, the more I can recognize it in everyone else. But that’s just part of it. The other part is that I feel like whatever’s connecting me to the other souls of this world or the actual soul of this planet, that thing, that connection, I feel like that’s what people refer to as God.”

“That sounds like what I think of it.”

“You never talk about your dad’s church or your role in it anymore.” Come to think of it, he never really talked about it, even when we practiced there. “Are you still religious?”

“Eh, not really.”

“Not really? Do you care to…elucidate?”

Remi smiled and shook his head with his eyes closed again. “Not really, I’d rather listen to you talk if that’s okay.”

Brie rolled onto her back. “Anymore it’s impossible to tell the difference between the peaceful, selfless beliefs at the core of what I once thought I knew and what the Blessed Path has made it into. I’ve been thinking about what Nas said, about not letting them take that away from me too, but they can’t take something I gave up willingly years ago.

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