Silent Island by Pablo Poveda

Silent Island by Pablo Poveda

Author:Pablo Poveda [Poveda, Pablo]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: mystery novels
Publisher: Pablo Poveda
Published: 2020-12-07T16:00:00+00:00


10

There is always a moment of reflection, a pause. A moment in which the images come to mind without a rational order whatsoever, like a movie employee who puts the wrong reel in the projector. The smell of the frying oil used by the neighbor comes to mind through the window. Who the hell is the bloke who smokes in the car? That lame family who discussed aloud in the line of the airport, repeating the names of Messi, Cristiano Ronaldo, and a movie actor. I recalled their clothes and haircuts. A man sunbathes on a deck chair with his shirt open and his chest bare. The irrational order of the images makes no sense whatsoever. But there is little one can do while standing there, witnessing the chaotic parade of mental slides, unaware why they are presenting like this, nor wishing for it. It is a similar feeling as when one crosses the threshold of a hospital because it is better not to think of what awaits in there.

A feeling that can come out of the blue one July afternoon on the balcony of your parents’ beach apartment. Someone smokes a cigarette, and the wind brings the smoke to your nostrils. A myriad of thoughts piles up when you find the lifeless body of a girl on the floor, a girl that you used to know and with whom you had slept at least once. The touch of her soft skin comes to mind, and you rejoice in its memory with longing at the thought that you will never touch anything alike. It hurts in the core like you had committed the atrocious act with your own hands. Not sure why, guilt invades you, triggered perhaps by the fact, at that moment, she was but a mere carnal relief. The only way that comes to mind to ease the guilt that begins to torment is attending her funeral and approaching her beloved ones, expressing your sympathies for their loss, and telling them: “I am sorry. I did not kill her, but I crossed paths with her and did nothing to help her veer away from this course.”

You hear conversations out on the street — men and women passing by under the window, talking about topics that are as versatile as they are menial. You listen to them and blame them for walking by, knowing that your wish — as the big nosy you are — is to listen to them. Their conversations are menial and irrelevant, with no place in your sphere. People often talk about menial topics, one after another — verbal rubbish — holding on to the conversation so that they do not feel out of place because deep inside, they want to talk about something, fit in, give their opinion, say something, and be listened. So oppressive is the fear of silence and loneliness. They fear being left out of the evolutionary chain.

When thinking about those people, one cannot help feeling superior and, at the same



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