Sekhmet's Curse (Pearl Vampire Chronicles) by Dara Nelson

Author:Dara Nelson [Nelson, Dara]
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Published: 2012-10-18T05:00:00+00:00

Chapter Nine

I quietly slipped out the back door, jumped up and over the wall and headed up the mountain. I wasn’t exactly sure where I was going or why, but I had to get out of there. I couldn’t take it anymore. I couldn’t handle the looks of sympathy, the pain in their eyes. It wasn’t their fault, this was me. This is how I deal with trauma in my life. I shut down. I stop talking. I pull away. It’s what I’ve always done. I can handle trauma in other people’s lives. That’s when I shine. When they need help, I’m at my best. When I need help, I’m at my worst. I can’t handle others feeling like they need to help me. It just doesn’t feel right to me. I’m supposed to help others, not the other way around. It feels wrong and unnatural to me. And so I shut down. I bottle it up inside. And I avoid those in my life who know my troubles and who might try to help me. I can’t help it. That’s how I’m wired. That’s who I am. So I walked up the hill and it didn’t take me long before I knew where I was headed. Waterfalls have always brought me comfort and joy. When I got to my destination, I sat at the edge of the pool, dangled my feet in the hot springs, closed my eyes and listened to the roar of the waterfall as I tried to think. Carlos was right. I knew he was, but that didn’t make this any easier. We had to leave for Egypt in three days, and he said the smart thing to do was to go hunting until we left. Get me completely sated, over-full even, before I was locked in that damn tomb, because who knows how long I would be locked in there and the more blood that I had in me, the better chance that I had to survive.

‘Sarah?’ Carlos’ voice broke my concentration. I kept my eyes squeezed shut because I didn’t want him to see where I was. I wasn’t ready for that yet, not by a long shot. ‘I went for a walk, hun. I’ll be back in a few minutes,’ I thought as calmly as I possibly could. In my heart I was thinking: please don’t find me yet. I’m not ready for that. I’ll break. I’ll crumble. I’ll fall apart. I can’t do that. I have to be strong for you, for both of you. There was silence for a few seconds, during which I assumed Carlos was talking to Matt. I was right. Matt popped into my head a few seconds later, ‘Sarah, honey. Please tell us where you are.’

He was trying so hard, but I could sense the panic that he was trying to hold back. Shit. But I need more time, guys. I’m not ready. I’m so not ready to see you yet. I took a few deeps breaths to try to calm myself.

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