I Still Remember by Harper Bliss

Author:Harper Bliss
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Tags: Lesbian Fiction, Short Story, Lgbt, lesbian erotic romance, Lesbian, Lesbian Romance
Publisher: Ladylit
Published: 2013-10-15T00:00:00+00:00

It was the beginning of summer after our high school graduation. Amy and I both knew we’d be going our separate ways at the end of it, each to colleges miles away from one another. But we had one last summer of lounging by the pond, talking about boys—in Amy’s case—and trying to muster up the courage to tell her how much I loved her—on my part. We had big plans to visit each other during breaks, and the Christmas reunions we’d stage would be epic.

Because I couldn’t bring myself to tell her, I felt more like a fraud every day. One afternoon, something inside me broke. I was sitting by the edge of the water, eyeing Amy as she ducked above and below the surface. When she pulled herself out, a million water drops clinging to her skin and reflecting the summer sun, the vision I had of her was too much.

No one knew how I felt, and I couldn’t tell my best friend. Insecurity, teenage hormones and the overwhelming sense of not having a clue as to who or what I was, knotted into a ball in the pit of my stomach. It sat there growing every time I looked at Amy. And I looked at Amy a lot those days.

“Brett’s bringing his friend Paul tonight. You know, the handsome one from basketball.” Amy plunged herself down next to me, spraying my skin with water drops. “Surely, he must be good-looking enough for you, Eli.”

I resented the fact that she just didn’t see. That she felt the need to set me up with boys I wasn’t even remotely interested in. That she assumed I was just like her. At the same time, I knew it was wrong to feel that way. And I wanted her so much. I wanted to kiss her and tell her to forget about Brett and Paul. We spent all of our time together and we got along so well. Why was that not enough?

But I knew it didn’t work that way.

“I have to go.” I started getting up, for once almost more repulsed by Amy’s half-naked body than turned-on.

“Now? Why?” Amy arched up her eyebrows. “You are coming tonight, aren’t you?”

“I’ll see.” Suddenly, I couldn’t get out of there fast enough. “I’ll let you know,” I said more to myself than to her, as I made my way out of Amy’s yard.

When I arrived home I told my parents I had changed my mind and did want to enrol in the summer school programme my college offered. They’d been keen for me to attend, and shipped me off a week later. Six weeks before I was supposed to. I saw Amy one more time before I left.

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