Beyond Redemption (Marked Series Book 2) by Jesse Lorenzo

Author:Jesse Lorenzo [Lorenzo, Jesse]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Jesse Lorenzo
Published: 2016-02-29T06:00:00+00:00

Giddeon walked through the massive cathedral doors of Saint John the Evangelist Catholic Church. Gripping his mother’s rosary, he marched halfway up the aisle and sat in a lovingly used pew. The church was thankfully quiet, its vacant state mirroring the emptiness that dwelled deep inside his aching chest. Bowing his head, Giddeon recited a few prayers from memory, begging for guidance, mercy, and forgiveness. He reflected on all the events leading up to his parents’ murders, the recent events that brought him there on his knees, and everything in between. His arms leaned on the pew in front of him, successfully hiding his face and the tears that trickled down into his five-o-clock shadow.

Today had been a devastating shock to his system. Old wounds ripped open in his chest, leaving him vulnerable and exposed for the world to see. Even after all this time had passed, the anguish was too much to bear. The boy who’d been left behind to suffer through all the traumatic aftermath, all alone, had been morphed into the very monster he was after. He never meant to turn into this heartless, uncaring thing.

He longed to wrap his arms around his mother and see the proud look that his father used to give when he taught him something new. Too much time had passed. His parents wouldn’t even recognize their own son, even if they were standing right there in front of him. He could almost sense their disgust at the vile, unfeeling animal he’d turned out to be.

The emotionally disturbed man was so tired of being stuck in limbo; Hell would be a vacation compared to the torment he’d suffered here on earth. Giddeon was tired of going it alone. He was tired of fighting. It was all just compensation for the one battle he should have fought. The only one that mattered all those years ago.

Giddeon sat on the hard wooden bench, surrounded by a sea of old tattered padding in the familiar cathedral. He’d always remembered it as full of people, full of life, and full of joy. Now, just like him, it resembled a dark, solemn, and hollowed out shell. He longed to feel the presence of their spirits in his heart, or sense their presence surrounding him. But he didn’t. He felt nothing. That was the worst of it all. Numbness. Nothingness.

Giddeon squeezed the rosary tighter as he whispered brokenly, “I’m so sorry I didn’t fight for you, Mama... I’m so sorry I didn’t protect her, Dad. Please, forgive me.” His chest caved in on itself like a heavy weight was crushing down on him. It was excruciating to breathe.

“The path I’ve been on has led me so far from you both, so far from what you taught me. Past demons have stolen my sanity. I’ve held on to anger and revenge for so long, I don’t know how else to be. Please. If you haven’t already turned your backs on me, help lead me onto the correct path. I don’t even know where that is anymore.

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