Wish For You by Marquita Valentine

Author:Marquita Valentine [Valentine, Marquita]
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Tags: Boys of the South#4
Published: 0101-01-01T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter Fourteen

Wyatt

“What in the hell do you think you were doing?” I mutter to myself. On the inside, I’m panicking and I’m pissed at myself. It hadn’t been that along ago that I had another female’s mouth on me, mine on her, and coke on my tongue, my gums… anywhere and everywhere Bailey and I could put the shit.

Sprawled under me, Lacey blinks and her forehead scrunches, like she can’t quite comprehend the question. I hadn’t meant that for her. I hadn’t meant to say that out loud at all.

“I was just saying what I wanted to do with you. I want to learn how to please you, do things to make you…” She swallows and then licks her bottom lip. “You come, too.”

My guilt and self-loathing doubles. It corrodes my insides, making me want a drink, a hit… an escape. Anything to forget what I’ve done with other women, to forget the things I learned along the way, the dirty, hot ways I’ve had sex. I’ve eaten girls out and been blown in return.

Only, I can’t admit the truth. I can’t tell her where I’ve been, what I’ve done… none of that. Basically… Hello, rock. Meet the hard, scary fucking place.

Suddenly, she scrambles away from me. A hand goes to her hair, the same thick hair that had tickled my chest. She wraps it around her fingers, her gaze on the sheets. Her nipples are still hard, still begging for my mouth again.

I almost give in to the temptation, but I can’t. I won’t touch her.

“I’m sorry, Wyatt.”

Shit. I should be apologizing, not her.

“No, baby. I’m—”

“It’s okay, Wyatt. I shouldn’t have tried to use you to forget my loneliness. I thought,” she says so softly that my entire body leans forward to hear what she’s going to say next, “I thought that you and I could… we could, after she said…we could be more. I could make you smile again. But I was wrong. I’m sorry.”

“Could be more what?”

“Please, Wyatt. I’m embarrassed enough.”

I reach out to touch her, and then draw back. I can’t touch her again. I catch her looking at me, at my hand. Her eyes widen, and her face flushes. Then her gaze darts over me, lower and lower, then back up again. “I’m not trying to embarrass you. I want to understand what you were trying to accomplish.” As soon as I know what she wants, I can make plans, swear off every woman who isn’t her, and get my life straight.

“I wanted to forget about my family leaving. I thought having sex with you was the answer.”

“Is that all?”

She nods, and my heart bangs against my chest. I don’t want to be used by her. “That’s all.”

I scrub a hand over my face with my free hand. She wants me. She doesn’t want me. She wants me for sex only. No rhyme, no reason.

Her lashes flick up, light brown eyes full of hurt, in direct contrast with her words. If she were just using me, why would she be the one hurting?

“I’m sorry,” she repeats.

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