The Weight of Destiny (Misfits #1) by Nyrae Dawn

Author:Nyrae Dawn [Dawn, Nyrae]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: teen, Contemporary
Publisher: Nyrae Dawn
Published: 2014-11-18T00:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR

~Ryder~

I don’t move from where she left until I can’t see the lights from her car anymore. Even when there’s nothing but darkness on the road, I stay still. What just happened?

All I wanted was to make this night good for her. I wanted to be with her. I brought her to meet my friends and I held her hand and I thought of her as my girlfriend, yet she bailed on me because I’m friends with Drea? Because of something that’s happened between us that I can’t take back?

She’s the one who said she didn’t want to be with me.

Suddenly, I can’t stop my legs from moving. Back and forth, I pace the area where she’d been parked. Where she gave me a hoodie and I told her I would make sure she’s okay.

She’s Ryder’s girlfriend…

No, I’m not…

Dude, I’ve been so stupid. What the hell was I thinking spending time with her and thinking it could actually mean something? That, what? I’d be like one of the guys at her school, and walk down the street holding her hand? That she would actually have a reason to want me as her boyfriend?

But I wanted it. I can’t believe I wanted it, and that makes me more pissed at myself than anything.

My foot connects with something. Looking down, I see a glass bottle rolling away. Bending over, I pick it up, and throw it as hard as I can. I watch the glass shatter as it hits the light pole and wonder how some girl I just met has the power to make my insides feel like they’re doing that—like they’re shattering.

It takes me less than half the time it took with her to reach the party again. I go straight for one of the kegs, fill a cup and drain the whole thing. I fill another and I’m halfway through it when there’s a familiar hand on my arm.

“Let it go, man. I don’t want to talk about it.”

Shane cocks his head slightly. “You really like her.”

My answer is to empty my second cup before filling another. Downing beer that quickly makes it straight to my head. I’m halfway through my third cup when I start to get the spins.

“Ryder,” Shane says, but I walk away from him. Fire dances in front of my eyes so I make a turn to keep from falling into it.

Tanner and Cody watch me. Tanner stands, but then Cody grabs his wrist and keeps him there.

“Ryder Blackstock, you’re wasted.” This girl who goes to my school wraps her arms around my shoulders. We’re facing each other and I smile at her.

“I am.” But then I step backward and her hands unlatch and fall to her sides. Without another word, I walk away, walk closer to the hill that leads up to the parking. I keep going until it’s darker, until the party feels a million miles away, even though I can still see it, before I collapse into the sand.

Who the hell am I?

I’ve always known who I am.

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