The Goodbye Man by A. Giannoccaro

Author:A. Giannoccaro [Giannoccaro, A.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Amazon: B0127AAYCY
Published: 2015-07-30T23:00:00+00:00

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“SWEET LETTIE, YOU are shivering,” a lush voice whispers to me.

Whispers are soothing. They calm me. They make me feel like I am home. I open heavy lids as my face is expressionless. No one cared to know me before as I was tortured and forced to fuck so many, yet I am clutched in the arms of another man that looks at me with tenderness. I don’t understand why I matter. Maybe he will cut my strings free from this bad world.

I allow my body to remain limp as his arms wrap themselves around me, warming me. I want to fade away, taking the only kind of love that I have felt with me. I lay my head on Mateo’s chest as his beating heart drums in my mind, begging me to hold onto that fucking word that I hate; hope.

Rugged reminders play about in my mind as I remember him loving the lifeless ones. How can someone so sweet and caring want something so horrible? Life isn’t about making sense of things. My life is the epitome of dysfunction. I dismiss it all as he walks my naked body over to the bed, pulling the comforter back and placing me down gently. He looks at me like he knows me, but I don’t ask questions. My mind and heart are far too tired to try and figure anything else out.

“Lettie, you shouldn’t love him. But I know you can’t help those that you love,” he whispers as he sits next to me, tucking my hair behind my ear.

I open my mouth to speak, but words don’t find me. His tattooed finger makes its way to my mouth as he presses it closed.

“Shh, Lettie doll. You don’t need to explain anything to me. I have loved, but they never last. Feeling love once is a beautiful thing, but having it run out of your life is worse. We have that in common, Lettie. I can’t handle running either. It makes me go crazy, too.”

I am stuck as his black eyes speak to me. I believe him. He seems like he would be easy to love, but there is a monster beneath it all. I suppose we all have a monster underneath. I am discovering mine, the one that wants to murder my weeping self.

“Whisper your needs to him, Lettie. He will listen. He will love you if you whisper to him.”

I gulp as he speaks truths to me, cupping my cheek. I know he isn’t pretending while he offers me a smile. One I trust. Trust, what is that? Trusting yields bad results, torn and tattered hearts and dead lives. I close my eyes and pray that it won’t hurt anymore. But I still feel it. The inevitable tears form in my eyes and I open them to see Mateo looking at me like he wants to protect me. I wonder if he would kill me. Make me dead and gone from this fucked up world. He could be my kiss of death; the one that I long for.

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