The Book Swap by Tessa Bickers
Author:Tessa Bickers
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Graydon House Books
Published: 2024-07-10T17:47:08+00:00
17
ERIN
Itâs only after Iâve squashed down next to him that I realize who it is. James Parr.
Iâm closer to him than we ever sat in English class. Closer than weâve ever been, except that one time I touched his hand back at school. Our shoulders are touching. I can feel the warmth of his breath and the strength of his gaze as he realizes itâs me.
His eyes widen, reflecting the shock I feel. He must have got caught in the shower too, because his light brown hairâs slicked back with rain and tiny droplets cover his thick lashes. His jawâs covered in a stubble Iâve never seen before and it sends my brain spinning in a way it didnât at Bonnieâs memorial. Itâs James, but so much older. Heâs a man now and itâs like Iâve only just realized it.
He swallows, his Adamâs apple moving up and then down. He keeps glancing at my arm and back to my face, before he holds his hands up, edging toward the steamed-up window behind him and creating a space between our shoulders. âHi, Erin,â he mumbles, swallowing. He runs his eyes across my face and shakes his head, a smile dying on his lips.
In my last session with Philippa, James was the main subject. She made me relive what happened between us, and go over my reaction to him at Bonnieâs memorial. How strong my response was, after so many years. How it might have been a shock to him, in the same way this chance meeting appears to be. Itâs like this is some kind of test, and I feel like Iâm failing, because I canât move on and be civil. One look at his face and Iâm back in my childhood bedroom. The room I didnât leave for weeks, after what happened. I just lay there, staring at the wall, wishing my life could go back to the way it was before.
My heart is filling with pain at everything I lived through as a result of what James did.
I can feel my body starting to shake, and I move my tote bag farther onto my lap, gripping it so hard my fingers go white. I turn my face away and into the arse of the man whoâs blocking my exit. Shrinking backward, I stare straight ahead, checking my watch. Itâs too late at night to walk, but I canât stay on this bus. Canât sit this close to him, feeling the heat of him against me. A flash of memory appears, hitting my cheeks. We were at a house party, back in the days when we were close. I had got myself locked in the bathroom. I was pulling at the door, but I couldnât get it open. Someone was on the other side trying to help. It was so loud, I couldnât hear who it was. I pulled extra hard just as they pushedâand the door flew open, James catapulting his way toward me, slamming hard against me, against the wall.
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