Seeking Solace by Chelsea Camaron

Author:Chelsea Camaron
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Carolina Dreams Publishing

Eleven

“Are you ready?” Shawn asked with a proud smile.

“Yes!”

After our first night together, Shawn had been the man I never knew I needed. The last month had been amazing. Falling in love was just that, falling. When he sensed me crawling inside myself, he dug in deeper to pull me out and back to him. I wished I could say it wouldn’t happen again, but I wouldn’t make promises I couldn’t keep. Sometimes we spent hours in each other’s arms not speaking, just being. At times, that was exactly what I needed. Other times, he went running with me or we hiked a trail. Everything with him was an adventure.

He gave me this easy acceptance I hadn’t found in many people.

Anything with Shawn was fun. The last month with him I have caught myself genuinely smiling. Elation beat out grief for the first time since losing Giano.

I felt like a resilient child again that I somehow might get through this thing called life.

It was Christmas break and I had made it through another semester of college. The snow was on the ground and it was cold, but I found it was more of a reason to snuggle up.

He didn’t question my past, even though I found out he came from an Irish family that had ties to another family that somehow had ties to Giano. Since the name Diamante wasn’t widely popular, when he saw my name as an out-of-state student, he checked my file. He was worried someone from his family was in trouble and maybe I was a set-up from that.

Sometimes guilty by association could mean big trouble when that association is to a crime family. They didn’t live by the laws and didn’t care who got caught in the crossfire.

I explained that my father’s business and his associations were something he took great care to keep me separated from. Truly, I didn’t know much about Giano’s work life and I was thankful for it.

As for Shawn, he had been cut off from his family when he made the decision not to be in the family business. With student loans, he had amassed quite a bit of debt trying to follow his own dreams. I admired his determination.

But I didn’t pry.

While I wanted to know Shawn, I wanted to know him for the man he was with me and not the ties to his past. I knew first-hand that who you were born as didn’t predetermine who you would become.

The man he was with me was the man I had fallen for, and no matter who he was by birth, I wouldn’t let that go.

Pasts were just that, the things behind us. I wanted to look ahead.

What a strange feeling to finally experience the euphoria of considering a time ahead with another person. I wasn’t making wedding plans or crazy stuff like that, but I was enjoying this time of getting to know one another.

I was taking in the chance to be normal, to feel and fall like everyone else.

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