London Undone by Nan Higgins

Author:Nan Higgins [Higgins, Nan]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781635555639
Publisher: Bold Strokes Books
Published: 2019-10-24T16:00:00+00:00

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London hadn’t looked at the green construction paper, or even thought about it, in weeks. Now that Reggie had received this infuriating communication from Larry Kopp, it brought the list back to the front of London’s mind. After a few glasses of wine with Grant, she said good night and closed herself in her room.

She opened the top drawer of her nightstand, grabbed the file, and pulled out the construction paper. As always, she stared, fascinated, at the list of items she’d felt, at ten years old, were destined to make her life complete.

She traced her fingers over number four, the one she had been glossing over since she’d first discovered the letter. Falling in love with a boy was out of the question, and maybe it was for that reason it didn’t bother her much. She and Tate had both dated boys when they were kids because that was what you did. In the time and place where she and Tate grew up, little girls dated little boys. She felt pretty confident that was how number three had ended up on the list.

“Get married,” she said softly. Was that on the list for the same reason falling in love with a boy was? Because it was just what people did? “Maybe,” she said to herself. “Maybe not.”

Being with Reggie tonight had caused a great ache in her. London wanted to tell her to come back home, to stop this foolishness because they belonged together. She hadn’t said any of those things because she knew that Reggie was doing her best to at least try to find a way to move forward together right now. She was thinking about whether she really needed marriage, and if Reggie could think about that, surely London could do some thinking of her own.

Could she get married? It was a great question, a question that had been pushed further to the back of her mind with every new blow she’d been dealt. But she knew Reggie wouldn’t wait forever, even as patient as she was.

She thought about the For Times Three game she and Tate used to play. If she were to play that game now and someone yelled Reggie’s name to her, she’d respond with, “Forever,” no question. She knew she wanted to spend the rest of her life with Reggie, so what was the big deal? Why was it so damn hard to say yes to promising forever to the only person she’d ever wanted to be with until death they did part?

“Because I’m the girl who wanted to quit therapy every week,” she answered herself out loud. She lay down and buried her face in her down comforter. It was true. Even when something was good for her…and sometimes especially when it was, she always needed an escape route. Even when she knew she needed to go back, she couldn’t commit long-term.

Ross’s normal policy had been to schedule one month of appointments in advance, getting four dates at a time on the books for each patient.

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