Emi Lost & Found Series by Otto Lori L

Author:Otto, Lori L. [Otto, Lori L.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2012-06-01T16:00:00+00:00

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I can’t believe it’s already nine o’clock in the morning. I’ve been watching the clock most of the night, unable to sleep. Anna was on an adrenaline high until about three, until we all convinced her to lie down and try to sleep. With the help of some relaxation music, she finally dozed off. Jen and Mae fell asleep soon after, but my mind wouldn’t rest.

I don’t know what I’m going to do about Jack. My stomach still flutters every time I think about him kissing me last night. I want to allow myself to feel this for him, but I’m still carrying around so many other emotions at this point that it just seems... well, complicated.

After taking a shower, I awaken the other girls and encourage them to get ready for our spa appointments. We’ll start with massages, then come back to our room for lunch and a little rest. I have a feeling Anna will be a bundle of nerves and energy today. At two, we’ll go to the salon to get our hair and makeup done, with plenty of time to mentally prepare for the ceremony at six.

The massage is just what I need. An hour of time devoted solely to me. I indulge myself in the possibilities of the day, sifting through my options and hoping to gain a little direction on which one is right for me.

I could succumb to my heart’s desires and commit to a relationship with Jack.

I could agree to start dating him, knowing in my heart what I want but allowing myself time to get used to the idea.

I could request that he give me some time and space to sort through things.

I could let myself sink further in despair over the loss I’ve experienced this year. A part of me feels I owe it to Nate, but I don’t give this option a second thought. I’ve devoted so much time to my grief and sadness. I need hope. I need the possibility of happiness again, or I may never find myself again.

I know for a fact that I want to feel that sensation again... and I know that I will. It will just be a matter of time. This, how much time, is what I need to decide. By the time the treatment is over, I feel a little clearer of my options.

We all meet back in our room and order room service.

“I can’t wait to see Chris,” Anna says, excited. “We agreed to not talk today... but I’m dying to know how he’s doing.”

“Let me worry about that,” I tell her. “Just relax and I’ll check in with him.”

“Thanks, Emi.”

I pull out my phone to send Jack a text message. “Do you have a few minutes to meet me in the lobby?” As I wait for his response, I try to do something with my messy hair, but give up when I sense there’s no hope.

About five minutes later, he responds, “I’m on my way.” I didn’t anticipate him being ready right away.

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