Deconstructing Sammy by Birkbeck Matt

Author:Birkbeck, Matt [Birkbeck, Matt]
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Publisher: HarperCollins
Published: 2008-09-02T16:00:00+00:00

Dearest Altovise,

Well, at our last meeting you were demanding, hostile, accusatory, self-absorbed, and selfish. You brought up your missing money—rather than ask about the well-being of your mother and Calvin. You accused Alice of conspiring with me to invade your privacy rather than praise her for being a caring counselor and continued support and inspiration to your life. Rather than express humble gratitude to Alina for financially supporting your recovery for over two years…or thank Ann for all the work and effort she puts into organizing and structuring your life. After that last embarrassing meeting, if that was the real you, I was seriously considering discontinuing my association with you. However, out of respect for Mother Gore, Calvin, your late father, Alina Lodge, and all those who have tried to help you, I will give you my unedited opinion of your present condition.

When will your soul be still, quiet, and peaceful so that you find God? Why do you play roulette with disability and death—is it a desire to be forgiven for the past injuries you’ve suffered, and those you have brought upon yourself and others? Must you meet God through death?…Are you consciously destroying yourself in order to find peace? What is the real reason, Altovise, why do you fool yourself again and again? Are you just a spoiled little girl who wants to recapture her long-lost innocence by numbing herself to her adult reality? I have no answer.

For nearly three years I have witnessed and experienced your dishonesty and deceit, both of which have made me feel violated and disrespected…you cheat yourself and others, and justify or rationalize your behavior and become hostile when challenged or discovered.

In the past three years and well before that, all your needs have been met and you have been coddled, taken care of, and pampered—how can I continue to feel sympathetic when we all continue to suffer the ups and downs of life? Are you so different and privileged?

Once you prided yourself on telling me that Sammy said, “The one thing you can rely on is that you will always be Mrs. Sammy Davis Jr. That no one can take that away from you.”

That was a very arrogant statement, although surely intended to give you comfort and a sense of financial security. Being Mrs. SD has been more of a curse than a blessing.

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