Coincidence Is God's Way of Remaining Anonymous: Reflections on ... by Gloria Loring

Author:Gloria Loring
Language: eng
Format: mobi
Tags: Motivational & Inspirational, Spiritual, Entertainment & Performing Arts, General, Self-Help, Biography & Autobiography, Women
ISBN: 9780757316487
Publisher: HCI
Published: 2012-10-02T00:00:00+00:00

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and therefore unpopular.” —Carl Jung y exploration into the deeper aspects of my being was Mabout to yield some amazing and shocking results. These revelations further challenged me to trust my inner experience. They

may challenge your belief system as you read them. They did happen to me and they did set me free from some of my old ways. It all

began with a good-bye.

Chris and I had been married almost four years when, on a bright

Sunday morning, he looked at me and said, “I have to leave. I can’t

stay any longer.”

137 This was not out of the blue. I knew there were irreconcilable differences that could not be overcome. At a workshop I attended, psychologist and author M. Scott Peck said there are two reasons to get married: procreation or friction. The procreation hadn’t worked very well and the friction had run its course. Chris and I talked quietly and agreed it was the right thing. He packed his things and left.

I calmly walked down the hall to the room with my meditation table and looked at my teacher’s picture. I sat very still to absorb what had happened and to quiet my mind. If it had been an earlier time in my life, Chris would have taken my sense of self with him when he walked out the door. Yet this time was different. My marriage had ended and yet my most prominent thought was gratitude. Thank you for giving me something that nobody and nothing can take away. The message was addressed to my teacher, and, in a sense, to Chris. His dissatisfaction with my unconsciousness had inspired my interest in meditation. It was his friend who sent us the yoga correspondence course and invited us to meet the teacher and she helped me experience that what I needed most was within me. Love was mine, independent of who was in my life. It was indeed “something that nobody and nothing could take away.” I could lose touch with it, forget it was there, but I could always move back to it, because now I had the tools to know how to do that.

Of course, I wasn’t devoid of difficult feelings in the next days and weeks, it’s just that I had beneficial ways to deal with them. Each time I felt anxious or lonely, I sat quietly and watched the feelings rise up. I didn’t run away from them or medicate myself with food or alcohol or busyness. I listened, the way a good friend would listen. The practice of actually hearing what was going on inside me was new and helped me deal with inner turmoil before it boiled over and spilled out in inappropriate ways. I was playing mother to my inner toddler, watching to see if a rising crankiness needed either a Time Out or a nap.

I was walking to my bedroom two days after Chris left when the inner critic started in on me. See, you’re alone again. You’ll always be alone.

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