Chyna Black by Keisha Ervin

Author:Keisha Ervin [Ervin, Keisha]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: African American, Ethnic Studies, Fiction, Social Science, Thriller, Urban Life
ISBN: 9780976234913
Publisher: Triple Crown Publications
Published: 2004-12-27T23:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER 12

IF YOUR GIRL ONLY KNEW

April 16, 2001, was a beautiful spring day, but I wasn't enjoying it. I sat by the phone awaiting Tyreik's call. He had promised that we would spend some time together that day. It was 4: p.m. and he was already an hour and a half late picking me up and my patience was running low. If there is one thing that I hated, it's when someone says they're going do something and then don't. This had been going on for a while, him making promises and not keeping them.

For the past month or so, he had been lying to me on a regular basis. He constantly left me at home alone wondering where he was or who he was with. Whenever he was at home, he would have an attitude and start fights with me for no reason.

It seemed like no matter what I did it was never right. I made sure that he stayed fed and that the house was clean at all times.

I tried to be cool about the situation because I said that I would trust him, but I really wanted to fuck him up.

Tyreik had started complaining about small petty shit. Soon after the complaining started, he began to come in the house at all times of the night. When I did confront him on this, he would either ignore me or say that I was trippin'. He always justified his staying out late with he was working. Bullshit, something was up but I couldn't pinpoint it. Sometimes when I called him on his cell he wouldn't pick up or when I two-wayed him he wouldn't reply. Everyday that passed and the bullshit ensued I became crazed with anger.

It got to the point that I started to skip meals and spaz out at any given moment. Whenever I became angry, I would tremble with fear because I knew that on any given day the truth would come out. I had to find out what the problem was. Talking to Tyreik was like talking to a brick wall, so I got no answers from him. When I asked him if he was cheating, he would become upset and turn the situation around and accuse me of cheating.

He would say that I was being weak, immature and insecure.

Then we would argue because I hated when he called me immature or childish. I didn't understand why he couldn't just meet me halfway and be truthful.

If Tyreik couldn't get his way or deal with the situation, he would just up and leave. Here I was trying to keep us together and he was treating our relationship like it wasn't shit. The more I tried and didn't succeed, the more I cried. I didn't know it at the time but I had become depressed, my tears had become my best friend.

I didn't want to talk to Asia or Brooke about my problems because I didn't want to hear I told you so. My relationship with Tyreik was so fucked up.

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