Behind the Green Curtain by Riley Lashea

Author:Riley Lashea [Lashea, Riley]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Gay & Lesbian, Literature & Fiction, Erotica, Lesbian, Romantic, Romance, Lesbian Romance, Genre Fiction, Lgbt, Lesbian Fiction
Amazon: B00F99HVKE
Published: 2013-09-16T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter 29

Glancing toward the passenger seat, Amelia wanted to turn the car around and take her daughter home in accordance with both of their wishes. Of course, she knew what the outcome would be. Jack would come in, see a piece of his life out of place, hear nothing said to him, and put Selene in a car with a chaperone who would make sure she got where she was supposed to go.

That was the reality of the situation. Amelia wasn’t consistently overruled. Her voice went completely unheard. Most of the time, it wasn’t even worth the effort to speak.

Pulling into the first available parking space, she killed the engine and tried to remain stoic as she looked fully at Selene for the first time since they had left the house. The accord they had was genuine, but delicate, and if there was anything that could destroy it in an instant, it was sending Selene back to the place of her greatest misery. Both grateful and troubled when Selene forced a sad smile, resigned to the circumstances, and got out of the car, Amelia listened to the door close with a hollow thunk and couldn’t stand the sound of her own life.

Before she could disintegrate, she followed her daughter from the car, helping Selene retrieve her bags from the trunk and carry them as far as airport security allowed. When she held her arms out to her daughter, she did so without hesitation, but with the lingering fear of rejection, feeling tears gather as Selene stepped into them without a fight.

“Call me when you get there,” Amelia requested. It was a poor substitute for all the things she wanted to say, for what she truly wanted to do. She wanted to keep Selene home, to continue rebuilding the fragile relationship they had. She knew well how it felt to struggle with the same torments day after day, and knew she had been compliant in her daughter’s suffering.

For many years, Selene blamed her alone for it, and maybe she was right to blame her. After all, Amelia thought, standing on the other side of the barricades with a forced smile as Selene waved and disappeared amongst the passengers in the terminal, what kind of mother sent her own child away?

When she got back to the house, Sole was out, and the void inside the walls felt deeper than Amelia had anticipated. Her breakdown had come in the airport parking garage, a veritable spectacle, she suspected, for anyone who happened by, and she was utterly cried out. Not knowing what else to do with herself, she walked the empty recesses of a house too big to be useful. More maintenance than living.

She had given into the most morose form of self-indulgence, and was sitting on the edge of Selene’s bed, when the intercom shook her from her despondency. “Amelia, I’m home.” Sole’s calm voice sounded throughout the house.

It was pity, Amelia knew, but she was nonetheless thankful for the disruption of her thoughts, which were leading to all kinds of worrisome places.

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