Beautiful Hearts: An Age-Gap, Single Dad MM Romance (Rainbow Redemption Book 1) by Jax Calder

Author:Jax Calder [Calder, Jax]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2022-11-27T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter 15

Jamie

It’s Wednesday, and I’m at the gym, killing time until soccer practice when I get to see Tim. Even though I spent Saturday night and quite a bit of Sunday with him before he had to pick Stella up, and I’ve seen him every day at school, I have that breathless anticipation I get when Tim and I are about to spend a decent chunk of time together.

I channel some of that nervous energy into the work I’m doing on the bench press. My biceps and pectoral muscles burn.

Since starting the Southlake job, I haven’t been to the gym nearly as often. I’m losing some muscle definition, but I find it hard to care.

For a long time after my dad died, getting my body to look the best I could was so important to me. Having as many guys lusting after me as possible was my goal.

Now it just seems…shallow.

I do twenty bench presses, and I can’t help but notice a guy working with the kettlebells on the mat glancing in my direction, then looking away as if he doesn’t want to be caught.

It reminds me of Pat, about how I first caught him checking me out covertly.

My stomach dives as it does every time I think about Pat.

It seems crazy now that I thought I’d been in love with Pat.

I know better now.

Because what I had with Pat was nothing compared to what I’ve got with Tim. Nothing.

I put up with scraps of affection from Pat, but with Tim, I have a seven-course meal complete with silver service.

With Pat, I’d placed him on a pedestal. Even though I was more experienced with men than him, he was much older than me and more experienced with life in general. He had a confidence about him that when he said something, it was as if it was a fact, and there was no room for me to have another opinion.

As I move onto the leg crunch, the time I talked to Pat about becoming a teacher flits into my head.

We’d just had sex and were lying on the bed together afterward.

At first, I used to leave quickly after we hooked up because it was obvious he wasn’t comfortable having another guy touching him in any way that wasn’t about getting off. But as the months went by, he gradually became more affectionate, and that night, when he stroked his hand down my chest, happiness poured through me.

And that bit of affection had tipped me over into spilling what was on my mind. “Did I tell you I’m thinking of starting university next year?”

I always seemed to do this when we were together. Tried to share my life with Pat. Even though he didn’t seem interested in sharing much back. He’d grudgingly told me he lived on the North Shore, where he worked in his family business. His family was incredibly religious, which was why he couldn’t be open about his sexuality. He always shut me down when I asked more questions.

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