Show Me How (It's Kind Of Personal Book 2) by Brooks Anna

Author:Brooks, Anna [Brooks, Anna]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: novel
Published: 2015-05-16T07:00:00+00:00

Chapter 14

Mary

“Please, Mary. It’s Christmas, for fuck’s sake.”

Brandon stands in a towel, brushing his teeth while I smooth lotion over my legs and arms. He’s been asking me to come to his parents’ house for Christmas. Actually, for the past week or so, he’s laid off me completely about everything else and has only focused on Christmas. I want to . . . so bad.

He’s frustrated with me. Hell, I’m frustrated with myself. I give myself pep talks when I’m alone that I need to grow up and move on with my life. Every morning I wake up thinking today will be the day that I tell Betty I want to move out. I figure I can start by moving somewhere close and still work for her. If I manage that . . . I’m not even sure what would be next. Baby steps.

Then I walk outside and take in my crappy surroundings. The chipped brick falling off the building. The horns blaring and cars whooshing by from the interstate. My home. I get lost in the monotony of my work. The calmness of familiarity. When the day is done and Brandon holds me, I realize I’m not good enough for him.

An image of going out with him and meeting his friends and co-workers haunts me. I imagine him introducing me, and people asking what I do. The answers are anywhere from him lying about my job to everyone laughing and anything else between. The scenarios flash like a movie. How could he not be embarrassed by my life? I pretend I’m not, but of course I am. I live in a fucking motel like a recluse.

How is that something he can be proud of? Why would he want anyone to meet me when I don’t have anything to offer him?

But his family doesn’t make me feel embarrassed. In fact, any encounter I’ve had with them gives me the impression they’re proud of me. I desperately want to spend more time with them but have to hold myself back. I don’t want to get too attached and have something happen between Brandon and me. I can’t bear the thought of losing them again.

“Christmas is in two days, and I’m sure your mom already has everything planned. I don’t want to ruin that.”

“Babe.”

“Yes?”

He stands in front of me, and I have to force myself to look into his eyes and not stare at the bulge under his towel or his ripped chest. But when I know what’s under that towel, it’s impossible not to let my imagination get the best of me. Especially when my body craves him like a drug. One thing that hasn’t changed is my body’s desire for him. I might as well be a teenager again with the way my hormones react to him.

“Do you honestly think for one minute that you could ‘ruin’ Mom’s plans? Better yet, you know her. And that means you know that she’s already planning on you coming.”

“She is?”

“Uh. Yeah. Of course she is.

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