Settle for More by Megyn Kelly

Author:Megyn Kelly [Megyn Kelly]
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
ISBN: 9780062565310
Publisher: Harper
Published: 2016-11-15T05:00:00+00:00

Becoming a mother is the most profound thing that’s ever happened to me. It is the point in my life that divided everything into before and after. My friend told me, just before I gave birth, “Now you will know what it is like to have your heart walking around outside of your body,” and that has proven to be absolutely right. That feeling I had upon becoming an anchor—“I was born to do this”—was dwarfed by the feeling I had on seeing my son for the first time—“I cannot go on if I don’t get to do this.” My career change brought me happiness. My child’s birth changed my understanding of what happiness really is.

Being a mother helps define me. It also terrifies me—the intensity of this love, the deep, spiritual need to be with my children and to have them be well in a world that is so fickle and unpredictable. It has humbled me, enlightened me, and enhanced my relationship with God.

Maternity leave with Yates was transformative in so many ways. I was learning how to be a mother—by doing it, by reading about it, by talking to my own mother, but mostly by instinct. My mom stayed with us for a bit and gave me some tips. Mostly she cooked—enough to feed a kingdom—and I was happy I didn’t have to think about it. Doug and I spent a lot of special time together during those months—we couldn’t get enough of our little man, who we took with us everywhere. Yates never wanted for attention.

Shortly after I returned home, Roger called me to congratulate me. “I’ll be back soon,” I assured him, if soon meant sixteen weeks.

“Don’t worry about that,” he said, “what you’re doing is more important.”

When I finally returned to work, I cried. It was very hard to leave my baby in the mornings. I remember thinking how bizarre it was to see myself with the Fox hair and makeup on. I looked and felt like an adult again. My first time on the air, it was for an O’Reilly hit. I was a bit stiff. I was tempted to speak in baby talk. But by the second time, things felt more familiar. “There I am,” I thought. And I realized it was actually good to be back. That there was something important at the office, too. A piece of me I loved, a piece I needed.

That’s not to say it was easy to leave Yates in the morning. But I knew I needed to go, and that my son would be getting the best version of me if I could go and do this thing I also loved to do before coming home to him and holding him in my arms.

People say Yates is my twin, but I think he’s a mini Doug. He came into this world a sweet old soul and he remains that way to this moment. Once, when he was five, we were walking home in the snow, catching the falling snowflakes on our tongues.

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