Salvation (The Youngbloods Book 6) by Monique Orgeron

Author:Monique Orgeron [Orgeron, Monique]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2020-11-10T00:00:00+00:00

18

Gunner

“What do you want from me?!” I scream like a mad man into the night. I left Catherine only to drive straight to Bayou Blue. The hour-long drive did nothing to calm me. Here I sit on my knees in the dirt where there once laid a large barn. Now, it’s vacant land with no remnants in sight of the hell that once went on here. No monument, no gravestones, no sign, nothing to tell the story of the many who died on this land.

“Why?!” I continue to scream, shedding tears for them and myself. “Why didn’t you take me?!”

Survivor, the only one left. Catherine looked at me like I was strong, brave. She thinks I should be happy or proud of myself for making it out alive. What she doesn’t understand is I’m not alive. Not inside. I’m living in purgatory. Hating them for setting me free. Hating myself for my own self-preservation, for my will to fight for the life holding on by a thread. Hating Catherine for her whispers, willing me to survive.

For what, so I can walk this Earth everyday, hating my very existence?

I should’ve died. I should have stayed with them. I should have given up.

I couldn’t. It wasn’t Catherine’s whispers I heard. It was them. It was their words, their cries, and screams, begging me to live. Begging me for vengeance. I fought because I looked into Christopher’s eyes and promised him I would.

The wrong person lived. Christopher should’ve been the one. He was the innocent one. His hands were clean.

Standing, I scream, “You picked the wrong fucking one! You hear me?! It should have been him!”

Catherine and her prayers to God. What a fucking joke. He doesn’t listen. He should have saved Christopher.

God sees all! He saw. He saw us and did nothing. He heard Christopher’s prayers and he let him burn.

“Why me?! You saw my hands. You saw what I did with them! Christopher waited for you! He’s the one who trusted you! Not me!”

None of us were left innocent, except him.

Falling again to my knees, my body shakes with sobs as I let myself feel. Feel all the emotions I’ve kept at bay for so long.

“This is my plague, my torment, God! You want me to suffer? I fucking am, okay? I’m suffering! But why do you tempt me? Why did you send Chloe into my life?”

I can’t stop my raging as the tears get heavier and every day of my life weighs on me.

“Why her? Why give me desire? Make me want more? Why give a taste of happiness and joy? Love!”

Laughter bursts out through my tears. “Another punishment, huh, God? Another reminder of what they will never experience.”

Then dragging another devil my way with the promise of everything I want, Catherine wants to give me everything I desire but asks me to forget.

How can I forget and live with myself? How do I forget all that was done to us? Even if I could forget what I was turned into, how do I forget Christopher and my promise?

“No, God.

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