Friends With the Monsters by Albany Walker

Author:Albany Walker [Walker, Albany]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2019-10-30T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter 18

After giving myself a few minutes to calm down, I head up to my bedroom. I need time to decompress. Calix may not realize it, but something inside of me has already changed. Watching him walk away from me was fucking hard. I haven’t felt the need to beg someone to stay in so very long. How could I give them that power over me?

My mind conjures up the last time I saw my parents. I was nine, and even though I knew my mother hated me, I begged her not to leave me when she dropped me off at boarding school. It was right after I accidently killed my teacher. I think she somehow knew I did it, or she suspected, at the very least.

She and my father never once promised to return for me. At least they did me the favor of not lying. They didn’t even show up for my graduation. I had a meeting with their lawyer a few days prior, explaining how my trust worked. He made it perfectly clear I wasn’t to contact them. Not that I ever would have anyway.

I dig my fingernails into my thighs to bring myself out of those thoughts. Thank goodness for the leather pants, or my nails probably would have cut the hell out of my legs.

“What a crock of shit,” I spit. I’m angry at myself for even letting the thought of them sticking around soften me. I’ve been telling myself this entire time not to get attached, but look what I’ve fucking gone and done, and I didn’t even realize it was happening. Now I’m sitting here, wondering if Gunnar is alright, where Grim has taken off to, and I can’t even think about Calix right now. I know he’s still here—my senses are even more aware of him after our make out session.

I need to get them to leave me alone before I do something really dumb and desperate, such as let them know how much power they have over me. I’m not able to control myself around them. Whether it’s the bond or just my own idiocy, I can’t really say, but I do know they’re dangerous.

With jerky movements, I unlace my pants and roll them over my hips before kicking them off into the corner, my bra gets removed right after. I need a shower and a lobotomy—at the very least, I need to build my walls back up. I had no idea they had already begun to crumble.

I’m scrubbing my scalp, probably a little too hard, when I sense Grim’s portal opening. He’s not in the bathroom with me, but he’s damn close. A wave of sins wafts through the air, but it’s not even the least bit tempting. My stomach actually rebels at the thought of consuming anything.

I quickly finish up my shower, I need to have a very important conversation about boundaries while I still have some resolve.

I’m not trying to be quiet when I walk downstairs, but I

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