Forth into Light by Gordon Merrick

Author:Gordon Merrick
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781497666252
Publisher: Open Road Media

Sarah put her hand out impulsively and took his. Her eyes swam with sympathy. “Darling, Charlie. If that’s the way he turns out, I’ll try. Just, pray God, not Mike.”

“I’d probably go along with you there. The age difference is too great, for one thing. What’s all this about George?”

She drew back and folded her hands in her lap and bent her head over them. “It couldn’t be worse, but for some reason I feel more hopeful than I have for a long time. It’s all out in the open at last. We had the most frightful scene last night. He said things I thought he could never say. Ugly. Cruel. He’s apparently off on a binge now. When it’s over, perhaps we’ll be able to talk to each other again. At least he didn’t leave. That’s what I was terrified of.”

“George? Walk out on you? He couldn’t possibly.”

She lifted tear-filled eyes to him. “It’s so difficult to live with a man with strict ideals. He can’t understand that others can’t always live up to them. Haven’t you ever been tempted? You know what I mean.”

He hesitated, arranging the facts to fit the meaning of her words. “No. Not really. I haven’t let myself be. Are you talking about Pavlo?”

She dropped her eyes and nodded. “George can’t possibly know. I just can’t believe I’m so much worse than other people. What about Peter? Did the children keep him from straying?”

“With boys?”

The subject obviously flustered her. “No, of course not. But there was a girl who came here——”

“I know about the girls,” he interrupted. “They’re part of the contract. I know people are naturally promiscuous, men probably more than women. I thought I couldn’t stand living with it, but things work out. I can understand what George has been going through since——”

“He’s made me suffer enough for that,” she interjected.

“When it happened with Peter—with a boy—I thought I could never make him suffer enough. I tore our lives apart and very nearly killed myself into the bargain. That’s when Martha and having the children came into it. I thought having a family would hold us together if the rest of it grew stale with time. George maybe loves less selfishly than I do. I don’t think he’s wanted to make you suffer. If he had, he would’ve fought back the way I did. He’s taken all the suffering into himself. You’ve got to find a way to take it from him. Making eyes at Pavlo isn’t the answer.”

Her eyes darted up to his and dropped again. Her mouth moved. “No,” she murmured. “That’s finished.” She took a deep breath that lifted her breasts, and faced him squarely. “You’ve told me something amazing. I’ll have to think about it before I see exactly what it means. You’re a wonderful person.”

Charlie made a little grimace and looked away. “I’ve looked at myself a lot over the years. There’s nothing very wonderful there.” He felt the coldness hidden away deep within him. Peter was off “humming” with his beautiful girl and he didn’t really mind.

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